Hey everyone!
Oh man, has it been really a month since I last posted a world post? I can barely believe it. I never even mentioned my Christmas or New Years I think. Both was fine, Christmas was VERY bitter sweet though, mostly because everyone was depressed and my parents had a nasty argument that evening. New Years was great because Brandon was over, my mom was strangely happy and my dad was out I think. So yeah, that's pretty much it with that.
Thank you everyone that commented on my last post! It was quite insightful, I'm going to have more questions for you guys for the future! :D
All about the business
I haven't been active here at all as you can tell, mostly because I haven't drawn much of anything and I have been focused on my angel card readings. It's been sucking up a lot of my time, with all the advertising, creating blog posts, free raffles and events; I didn't even have time to write proper blog posts for it. So now I'm not going to do so much and just have this Valentines day livestream event and that's all. You guys are more then welcome to come if you want, it gives you all a chance to see what I do lol. Though, I've been thinking about holding some free ones over here for the people that are curious about them. It would be fun because I probably won't be working with such complex lives of older people, I would be working with my own age group that probably have the same aspirations as I do. Something that I have a passion for.
Random new family van
Things have been going in the right direction in the last week. In a complete random event, my dad brought a white family van last Sunday. My dad is so happy, and it seems that my parents had made up so things are not as tense as they use to. I'm happy too, but a big part of me still wants to get the hell out of dodge. I forgot to mention that I can go get my physical and permit so I can FINALLY learn how to drive. Seeing so many other's around me learning and driving was really pissing me off.
Honestly hour
It's strange, because all of my old feelings of wanting success of all kinds completely risen from the depths of my heart again. I want to have a steady income so I can really plan to move out, without selling my soul to the job market. I've seen my friend Jer go through what I most dread about any job; get sucked dry for everything you're worth for some cash. Good income or not, it never pays off if you have a melt down or two. That and having a subpar job that's not in your passion, the job is okay, you know how to do what they asked for, but its never anything you went to school for or want to do fulltime.
I'm so different in the way that I work and view things that I feel like there is no job for me out there, unless I make one for myself. Then there comes the whole marketing aspect of that. You have to work your tail off to get your own business off the ground, and quite frankly I'm sick of waiting for that big break. A sale once a month isn't much of anything, but I guess having less time to do it, to work for some smock for less money then you're worth isn't anything either.
Gah, I didn't want to sound like a downer today but this week have been rough for me emotionally. I've been really exhausted for most of the week, not to mention I'm feeling quite envious of people that seems to have it together, or just more successful then me. I don't like feeling that way because they could be going through a lot more then I'm "seeing" but I can't help to feel like "damn, s/he got so successful so fast, where the hell is my success?" *sigh*
Beauty and the Beast in 3D
Crap, with all my bicthing and moaning I forgot to mention that me and Brandon went to see Beauty and the Beast in 3D today. The movie was GREAT! If you love the movie then you need to see it in 3D, all the best parts of the movie is even greater in 3D. Going there today made me realize how much I really love the movies. I want to go more often but it can be expensive, like $40-$50 dollars for two people expensive. I paid too since Brandon's plans fell through, so he didn't have the money to take us like he planed. I didn't mind since I asked my dad for it anyway lol. I still have some change left over that I can throw in my account too. The only downer I can think of is that the little bit of people/children that were there was a bit too talkative in some parts.
One time they are talking out loud and god it was so annoying. Not to sound like a complete dick, but children and babies (more babies then children) shouldn't be allowed in movie theaters LOL. The crying really gets in the way of trying to enjoy it, and some children are just fucking rude. I mean its not rocket science to whisper your needs to your mom, or know that the movies isn't the park where you can be loud and stuff. *dick mode over*
But yeah, the movies were great. I plan to go see some more in the future.
I think that's about it. I'm hoping my mood won't go the shitter this week. I'm going to promise myself not to get so wrapped up in other's successes and focus on myself, and on my needs.
Thank you all for reading, bye!
