THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.

Sorry!!

To begin with, I deeply and sincerely apologize to those who participated in my challenge; I know I haven't selected winners or done the rewards, but I promise that I will. I'm currently going through a really tough time with things, and since I'm in the process of moving to a new home that won't have internet for a little while, getting on here has been and will be difficult.
I've also been dealing with trying to get out of a bad state of mind. For those comfortable enough, I will type what happened in a spoiler text form. Be warned, it isn't the most pleasant, but I feel some explanation is in order, and I would rather people know the honest reason as to why I have been so absent.

During December, I spent some time making very important amends with people, and I had thoroughly believed things were going well, but unfortunately, on New Years Day, things took a turn for the worse. I felt very hurt and betrayed by some people, and while I now know the reason for the events...at that time, I was inconsolable. After being clean from self harm for quite a long while, I relapsed, and even considered suicide.

So, needless to say, I've still been pretty down in the dumps, and I'm slowly trying to make a recovery into positivity. Honestly, it will probably take a while before I'm completely out of this dark place, but I am trying, and while I'm trying to climb back out of it and into the light, I ask that people be as patient as possible with me. I can honestly swear that once I'm back in a stable state of mind, I will be back on track with everything and will start working on rewards for the winners of the contest.

Until then, please bear with me. And thank you all for not pressuring me. I appreciate that more than anyone can possibly know.

~A~

LAPTOP IS BAAAAACK!!!

Alright guys, I'm gonna keep this one short, but I have a laptop again, so I'll be able to post drawings again!!! :D

I'll start posting them after I get done at a costume party today. :3

Return of Yuki

Okay, as I'm sure my subscribers who read my last post may remember, Yuki had left me behind for a club girl that he met.
He had broken all contact with me, so I deleted his number and didn't try to contact him while he was in his relationship, despite a pregnancy that did, in fact, involve him.

Three days ago, he un-blocked me on Facebook, re-added me, and messaged me to tell me I was right about the girl being crazy and a gold-digger, and also apologized for leaving the way he did. He asked what he missed, and I told him several different things that he had missed since being away and not speaking to me...and I told him about the miscarriage that I had. He asked his if it was his, and I explained to him that it couldn't be anyone else's, as he was the only one I was intimate with.

He was destroyed again.

Since then, he has been trying to make plans to come see me or to pick me up and take me clubbing before I go on vacation, however...Plans keep getting fucked. Which is extremely annoying.

While I'm glad I have my friend back, I did tell him that I cannot forgive him this time for what he did to me, but that I can put it behind me and move forward into re-establishing our friendship.

Call me a fool if you will, call me whatever you'd like...But I can't keep just being without him in my life. And I can only hope that this time, he stays in my life, even if we don't end up together. He's my rock, and I need him.

If my subscribers wish...

Some of you have made an effort to talk to me, and I do appreciate that. So, I'm putting this here in case anyone should ever wish to talk to me, be it for a random conversation, advice, or just because you feel like making new friends (which I myself am completely okay with since I'm currently greatly lacking in the friend department and quite lonely).
If you'd like to get to know my more personal side, I give you the option to view my Tumblr page: http://yamihime24.tumblr.com/
If you want to see the more...adult friendly drawings that I've done and give feedback: http://tsumiwolfpriestess24.deviantart.com/
If you want to be my little internet buddy and talk to me whenever, you can e-mail me, and if we talk for long enough, I might even feel comfortable enough to give you a number to text me at: [email protected]

Keep in mind, I AM going through a rough time right now, so I can't always guarantee an immediate response. But I will check, and if I see something from anyone, I will reply as soon as I can.

I hope everyone is having a good week so far.

WARNING:: Very Personal, Read At Your Own Risk

This post is to update those who stay involved in my life as my friends, and not merely as subscribers to my drawings because they're pretty.

I'm currently dealing with depression and anxiety, and I haven't been doing much drawing aside from the few posts I made recently. Yuki and I broke up October 13th, 2014, and it hurt me quite badly. But we had continued to hang out, watching movies and cuddling, playing video games, doing song covers...blah. We pretty much had been re-kindling what we had only just destroyed.

Then, on November 7th, something amazing and awful happened at the same time. I was spending the night at his place, and no one else was around, and I gave up my virginity to him. It may have been the biggest mistake I've ever made. I didn't want to work things out with him at first, but then, I changed my mind, and by then...HE didn't want to try anymore. So, we just kept going on the way we had been, despite the choice. We would cuddle, watch movies, play video games, sing together, and have sex, sometimes multiple times in one night.

This continued until he met some girl at the club we both go to, and even then, he still had me coming over and spending the night. They made their relationship official on his birthday, the 21st of December, but like I said before...he was still having me come over and spend the night.

On the 28th, I got extremely drunk at his place, and we were playing Black Ops against each other...The penalties we came up with weren't very appropriate. I told him that if I won, I got to do whatever I wanted (I never specified what, and hadn't originally meant for it to be taken sexually), but he took it seriously, and made the penalty for me if he won...well... giving him head and not stopping anything till he was done.

He defeated me, obviously, because I could hardly keep from swaying...and that's when he caught me off guard by taking the penalty agreement seriously.

I stopped mid-way, called myself horrible, and he replied with, "How are you the horrible one when I'm letting you help me to cheat on _____?" He knew EXACTLY what he was doing (he had only had half a Corona anyway).

Then, on the 1st of January, he stopped talking to me, and moved away to live with her. When he left, I was in the middle of a pregnancy scare that he was aware of, and he was the only one I had been intimate with. When I had told him, he gave me two options: abort it or put it up for adoption if I was indeed pregnant.

I miscarried.

He doesn't know.

But because of that, and because of his actions, I've been deeply depressed, so I haven't felt much inspiration to draw.

I apologize for this; once I am feeling more up to it, I promise to upload more art.

Until then...please bear with me.