THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.

Call me a fool, but...

Alrighty...

Khaos has some BIG news. Although it may not surprise many...it surprised me.

Just two days ago EXACTLY, after school, my ex, Tyler, met up with me to hang out until I had to leave, which was around six fifty or seven p.m...We walked around for a bit, and it started to rain. It wasn't raining all that hard, but it was kind of the wrong time for it to start raining, since I had always wanted to be somewhere with him while it rained and we were dating. Well, he looks at me and says, "Is it okay if I show you this one spot I had wanted to take you to when we were dating? I think you will like it there, and there's trees, so we shouldn't get rained on too bad." So I told him I was fine with that.

He leads me to this lovely area with a stream going through it, and says that there is a specific area there that he wants to take me. So he keeps leading me, all the while helping me up and down the steep slopes. We get to another part of the stream, and I tried to make it across on my own...I slipped on a rock and got the top right half of my shirt and hair wet. I was embarrassed, but he assured me it was fine. So we sat there quiet for a bit, just listening to the stream.

A few seconds later, it starts LITERALLY pouring rain on us. He looks down, so I ask him what is wrong. He looks over at me, with that look he used to give when we had been together, and he says, "Back when we were together, THIS is EXACTLY how I wanted us being here to happen. I wanted it to be pouring rain, and just you and me. And now it's happening. Just...at the wrong time." So I nodded, stood, and walked over to some cattail things. I started pulling them out of the ground. Then he said, "Come on, let's go back." So he helped me pick up my stuff, and put my glasses in his coat pocket.

He helped me up another steep slope and we got to the open...we were still getting rained on pretty bad, haha. Both of us had soaking wet clothes and hair. My bags also got soaking wet, so some of my un-needed paperwork is water-damaged. My headphones survived.

We finally got to the VC, and went to the back of it. I recalled that I had an extra shirt, and checked to see if it was still dry. Luckily for me, it was. I changed my shirt not too far away from where he was standing, back turned to me, thank goodness. *laughs*. So I told him he was okay to look when I was dressed completely. We walked to a dry area, and sat there for a bit. Then came our hopeless confessions...we still love one another.

For a while, we just messed around, running around in the rain, and then he had to...*haha* use the restroom. So while he was gone, I spun around in circles in the rain. He ended up running back up to me once he had returned and caught me before I fell. When I could focus, I looked up at him, and we stared into one another's eyes for quite some time before we walked back to the dry area. He ended up staring at me for a while, and when I finally asked what he was thinking about, he said, "I'm just trying to decide something."

So as I had gotten kind of bored finally, I started to walk back into the rain, and he pulled me back, gently. He had me kind of...against a wall. He stared into my eyes again. "I've decided. But I think it will be easier to show you." We stood there. Nothing.
"Tyler, um, are you going to show me what you have to show me? Otherwise...I won't understand."
"I'm afraid that I might get slapped."
"Haha, do I look like I would slap you?"
"Actually, and no offense meant, but yeah, you do." *chuckles nervously while blushing*
"I won't slap you...I promise."
"Then...I might as well just go for it."
In that moment, he leaned in and kissed me. This time, our kiss was far more passionate than the ones in the past. I learned. When he pulled away, we smiled and went in for another kiss. It was in that moment that we confirmed that we were officially back together. Then I smiled.
"Tyler, could we...um..."
"What?"
"Could we move into the rain a little bit?"
"Um, sure. Haha. But why?"
"Well...I've always wanted to kiss someone in the rain...*blushes*"
"*smiles* Okay."
We kissed again. In the rain. I felt like I was flying. It was, in all honesty, like a movie to me. I never thought that it would happen, just like most events within a moive, and yet, there it was, happening. I ended up walking out into the open, just staring off at nothing. Tyler came up behind me and held me.
"Tyler...will it still be like this later?"
"Later? *chuckle* No. It'll be better."
"Do you know what I meant?"
"Hmm...our future?"
I giggled.
"I was right, huh? *chuckles*"
"Tyler, I meant tomorrow...will we still be able to be like this?"
He kissed me again.
"Of course we will."
Then he walked me to the college.

I got in a lot of trouble by my parents for being gone until a little bit past seven, but it was only because they were really worried. I've never seen my mother cry like that, so...I vowed never to do that to her again. But I won't tell them about Tyler again until I feel they are ready for it, and right now isn't the time. But from now on I will let them know where I'm going, what I'll be doing, and how long I should be.

For the record, though....
....it was totally worth it....
....because I'm happy again.

~KHAOS

Another Updateth

Yes, updateth. Sounds weird, I know. But I don't really care! HAHAHA! Okay, so. I saw Alice in Wonderland. I freaking loved it! It was soooooooo great! The only thing that I am having an issue with is that I can't figure out if I'm imagining things or if the Mad Hatter and Alice had something going on. Like, that they were falling for each other. It certainly seemed like it!!! Eh! It will keep bothering me until I figure it out. I may have to watch it over again. But it would seem that I might actually be a little right, cause I've seen fanart with them and wallpapers with them together...I don't know. I think I'm losing my mind. HAHA! We're all mad here...lol. That ship has already sailed FAAAR away with me.

So I got most of my stuff back. My iPOD, Seizan, my stereo, Kat...now I'm working on getting house internet privaleges back, and my phone, and jewelry. Yeah, me and Tyler are still engaged. I don't know how this really works, that me and him are engaged but not dating. Oh well, him and my best friend broke up, so...and he is single right now, so I'm content. Yeah, I talked to him about everything, and mentioned that I might need a reminder from him every now and again that he still loves me and is going to keep his promise, even if he must tell me in secret. He chuckled and said, "I'm going to just get a book of sticky notes and put them all over for you one of these days...I don't know how many times I have to tell you, you're stuck with me forever." I couldn't help but giggle.

I am really getting excited right now...I can't wait to put my videos onto my iPOD. Seizan will be so pleased. Teehee~!

Oh, I have been dressing kind of boyish lately. O.o I wore a white tank top with a dress t-shirt over top of it, one that is for a guy. And I wore a tie with it, and jeans...normal shoes...my wristband...yeah. The only girliness about me right now is my makeup and my hair. Oh, and my chest. ;P LOL! AND! The fact that I don't have a cock. HA.

Me and my language....SHAME SHAME!!! I hope not very many people read these, because sometimes, I don't control my language, and I would be DEVASTATED if someone got offended...(actually doesn't care, but pretends to) Hense my almost never saying GOD anywhere. OH! I'VE SINNED!!! Nyeh...sorry. that was mean of me. (still kind of doesn't care, but tries to restrain self) I am sorry. Haha. I can't help it.

I live in a state full of religious people, and I'm NOT religious, so...sometimes it gets frustrating. I swear, as soon as me and Tyler DO marry, I'm getting Devin, and all three of us are MOVING OUT of this state. Somewhere that there aren't so many religious people all around us. I swear, where I live, they are around every corner, saying, "GOD LOVES YOU, YOU MUST COME TO MY CHURCH!!! JOIN US...JOIN US..." Okay, that was an exaggeration, but you get the point. I'm not religious and I would like to live somewhere that it isn't some kind of crime punishable by death to everyone around me. It gets kind of difficult having so many Mormon friends sometimes...

I've gone to church before, but...I just have no interest in it. Religion makes so many people so...ignorant. I mean, really...look past the bullshit, people...stop giving in so easily to a lie...nobody has even proven that God or Jesus or whatever whoever really existed, so come on...people need to question religion a little more. I mean really, how can someone believe that some average joe just randomly talked to God, and an angel who was a white native american, and then he could translate golden plates by looking in a dark hat with these weird looking stones in it? Yeah, no...I don't see it happening. (realizes that self is ranting and clears throat) Sorry. It just...it gets on my nerves so much sometimes....

Anyway. This past Sunday was the two year anniversary of my Great Aunt's death. I've been kind of sad, but, I don't think anyone can tell. Except for Tyler, I think. He asked what was up the other day, but I lied and told him I was tired...he called bullshit on that, but I smiled and said, "Oh well...Maybe I'll tell you later."

I think he gave me a reminder this morning. Sort of. He held out this money thing, and said, "Can I buy you? Forever?"
"Um...you don't have to, Tyler."
"Oh, wait, so you're paying to have ME forever?"
"No...you already own me...technically..."
"Oh..! YAY!" *smiles, hugs, and walks off*
ME:*just stands there for a moment looking completely lost*

Yeah, that was the dialogue between us this morning. It was amazing.

Oh, I'm practicing my calligraphy. You know, with Kanji and stuff. So far it looks pretty good, just as long as I stick to the correct stroke orders. Hehe...stroke orders...that sounds kinda dirty. LOL.

Anyway, I'm getting bored of typing here right now. I have several new poems and songs that I might post later if I feel like it and if I have the time. Bye bye for now.

~Arianna

Tsumi hates life and love and tests.

okee dokee. so Tsumi hates her life. She isn't good enough for like...ANYONE. it sucks. She also hates love. It sucks BIG ONES. And I hate tests with a passion. They are very unecessary. And I hate them. Ya. Well I think that's it, but I need helps. I don't know what to do anymore about my...imperfections. so help if you can...bye bye now...

Happy!!!

Okay, so Tsumi is dating again...YAY!! I love the guy I'm dating so much...he's so sweet...I know Love is a strong word, but it's what I'm in with this guy. I call him Wolf. ^^ I'm sure all of you who I am friends with would be glad to meet him if you could. ^^ Anyway, I just wanted to clarify that, yes, even though right now I'm going through a lot, I am very happy. When Wolf is around...nothing can bring me down. ^-^ so I hope everyone else here is happy too!! And remember, if ever any of you need to talk to someone, I will be here to listen. I love all of you very very much!!! Just...uh...LOL...not the same way that I love Wolf! LOL!!! Bai bai for nao!!!
~TsUmI~

O NOES!

Okay ppls. Tsumi is having problems again!!! EEP! um...her ex-boyfriend might ask her out again, and she still has some feelings for him. Kinda sorta. But she is in love with Kuro! And she dumped Kavin cause it just...didn't feel right to date someone that I didn't really...like. But now she doesn't know what to do, because she swore to Kuro once that she wouldn't allow her ex, Kyo, to get to her before he did. She had asked him flat out, "Would you be angry/upset if Kyo got to me before you did?" and he said, "Yes I would be." so I promised I wouldn't let it happen! But...its so tempting. I don't know. I feel kind of...whorish, and if there's little lines bleeping something out....I repeat, I feel w h o r ish. so...yeah. I don't know what to do. Any suggestions...? anybody...........?