THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.

School!!! Escuela!!! YAAAA!!!

Okay!
So, school has started for me again. :3 So far, I'm really loving my Junior year classes. And I have a free period first hour on my A-days. :D Hence how I'm updating this. Heh heh.

So I have Spanish 1 this year. And I'm learning spanish. But it seems like my favorite thing to say/ask is, "Donde esta el bano?" ("Where is the bathroom?") XD

I wear completely emo clothing this year, and I do my hair straightened in my face. Kinda like...scemo sk8er. Scemo, if you're wondering, is scene-emo. I do my makeup dark, you know...black eyeliner and stuff. And I paint my nails black. All I need now is to dye my hair black. XD My parents, shockingly, are allowing me to dress and look this way. They honestly no longer care just as long as I'm not doing the wrong things, such as:
-Cutting
-Giving bad attitude
-Doing poorly in school
-Being sexually active at a young age
-Dating Tyler XD
So basically, I'm fine to do what I want as long as I keep up on things. Not only that, but I have my iPod Touch back, and my cellphone as well. I have to turn them in before I go to bed, and I don't get them back till homework is done, but it's still worth it. And I have free weekends. I can do what I want when I want as long as homework and chores are done. I'm quite the happy camper.

I've been drawing lately, and noticing how much my art has improved over the years. Especially since I lived in Florida. I might post some art today, but it won't look as great as it would if I scanned it. The pictures were drawn and then I caught a camera picture of the drawing on my phone. I then uploaded the images onto the school computer I am using, and that's how I'm going to upload it. Or. Them. Haha.

Oh, over the summer, I spent two weeks out in Florida, visiting my dad, little brother, and my father's new wife. I went to SeaWorld for the first time, and Busch Gardens. That one was a first as well. We had a BLAST. It was amazing. Sadly, I can't handle rides the way I used to be able to. I get sick very easily now on roller-coasters and spinning rides. It frustrates me, because that makes it difficult to enjoy myself on trips that I go on for fun. It truly truly sucks. But anyway, we also went to the beach. Ahh the beach. I haven't been to one in so long that the sun scorched my skin rather badly, and the salt water made my legs burn as though there were jellyfish stinging from all directions. Mind you, there were NO jellyfish where we were. Still, it was fun, even if I had trouble sleeping with a cooked back. XD

I taught my little brother a few things about how to draw like I do, and I was very happy to see that he is a fast learner and good listener when it comes to things that interest him. He is on his way to becoming a great artist. I'm very proud of him.

Now for things out here...

Since I'm in school, there is drama. And where there is drama, there is stress. I can't stand it. Already. We are four days into the school year, and there is already a heap of drama starting. "So-and-so cheated on such-and-such!" "I hate so-and-so, you should help me kick their ass." Yeah, uh, No. Not going there. I'm really tired of all the drama bullshit. It's stupid. So someone cheated on someone else. What do I have to do with it? Nothing. So leave me out of it, right? But they seem to think that they need to tell me!!! So it irritates me.

Curious thing, how drama starts so horribly once you hit high school. BOOM! There it is.

Well, I suppose I will wrap this up now. I have a dance to prepare for tonight. Yay. Hasta luego!!!

~A.

Yippee!

So it is summer for me.
I have such a huge crush on someone right now, and I'm sad, because I haven't seen him in a while. Luckily for me, he accepted my friend request on facebook. YIPPEEEEEE!!! *dances giddily*

So I found out Tyler has another girlfriend...ALREADY!!! ha! And he says she means a lot to him. PAH!!!! I will laugh when it falls through the way it will. It's just too fast for him to suddenly be in love with some girl he barely knows. Pff.

Well, I had a dream with my crush in it. It was amazingly freaking awesome. I can't stop thinking about it. No joke. I get giddy every time the image replays in my head.

Speaking of my head. I got my hair cut. Uber short. I'll put a pic of it at the end of the post. I think I look really cute right now with my super short hair. I feel good about myself for once. Maybe it's cause of my new look AND having Cole-sama involved in my life...? Cole-sama=my crush, by the way.

So I've been writing a lot again and drawing a lot. Hehe. I would post some art, but I kind of can't right now.

OH! And I only failed one class this year, and since it was an elective, that means no summer school and no repeat of the class. WOOT WOOT. Hopefully mother and father feel somewhat the same as I do about that.

I'm at a friend's house, and I've been working on a story that she inspired me to write...I haven't slept at all. He. He. He. I can't help it. I have so much to do, and so little time to do it. Ooh, that sounded wrong, haha.

Well, anyway, I just wanted to update here. ^_^ Loves!!
~KHAOS

P.S. Yes, I'm wearing a tiara...shut up, haha. I was hyper. And saw the tiara...and decided to be a princess for a little bit.

Summer and other stuff!

Ooookee dokee!
So.
I'm out of school for the summer after the 28th of this month. Great, but not great. I'll miss my friends.
Sadly, I might have to do summer school. Then again, maybe not. I'm not sure yet. But I'm hoping that I don't have to deal with summer school. I HATE summer school with a passion.

I have also figured something out. I know what I want to do for a profession. I want to be a professional photographer. You know, dealing with nature shots and stuff. Wildlife. I'm really good at it. I figured that out over the weekend. I was hanging out a lot with my great uncle, and he has professional cameras, and takes really good professional wildlife shots of flowers, animals, and scenery. He let me use one of his cameras during a trip to the wildlife refuge out here, and I took some DAMN wonderful pictures. I'll have to put some up when my great uncle sends out the disc of the pictures I took.

So I might be getting my sexy darling phone back. I have missed her. She was my lovely. She still is. And I will be able to text more people, now that I have more people's numbers. HAHAHAHA!!! It will be fun. Yes yes.

I'm hoping to see my brother sometime this summer, too. We have been talking a lot lately. We have grown really close even though we live far away and haven't seen one another in so long. We are desperate to hang out with each other soon.

So anyway. I've been drawing lately. The art looks pretty good, so once I get a scanner again, I'll post some art. Or try to, haha. It might even have to come from my phone, to be honest. Lame.

So I got a new pocket knife. It's...sexy. I like it. I was going kind of knife happy this morning when I got it. I kept flipping it open and then shutting it. Ha. The blade looks lovely. I'm kind of craving as of late, but I'm trying not to.

Well...I'm not entirely sure what else to write. Hmm. To any of my friends that remember me from Florida or New Jersey, ones that I was seriously personally friends with, like, that I met, if you ever want to talk to me, just PM me, I'll tell you my new house # and cellphone #.

Hope everyone is doing well. Don't be emo. Trust me. Not. Worth. It.
And don't do drugs.
Except pot.
Pot is okay.
Not harmful to people in any way, shape, or form. So yeah.
Love love.
And no, I'm not on pot.
...yet.
Just kidding.
Or am I?
BWAHAHA.
^3^
<3,
~KHAOS

Confident

So, the other day, I had been all sad in my post. But I went home that day and talked to my parents about it. And you know, they really helped me out this time. I took their advice. Mom told me to just tell him off, and I did. I haven't talked to him at all. And my mom made me write a full page of positives about myself, then had me read them out loud. Now I come to school with my face actually showing. I hold my head up high now. I feel really good. I have never been so confident about myself. But it seems like since my parents talked to me, I am able to feel good about myself. I might still be a fool, because yeah, I'm still sticking to the original plan of marriage, but if that changes, then I won't be so sad about it. I can just tell myself that I don't need a guy who will suddenly change his mind and treat me like shit. And I can believe it if that does happen.

I've been drawing a lot, too. And the art is actually REALLY GOOD now that I'm in a good state of mind. And you know, I don't feel all that bad about being single right now. It's pretty fun! I get to hang out with my girlfriends more often, just joking around and having laughs, instead of being so preoccupied with a guy who probably doesn't really care about anything other than getting in my pants. I'm enjoying myself as a single girl for the first time, and you know what? It feels great! I'm also getting my grades up a lot faster. I only have a C- and two D's to take care of now! And the percentages are going up already! ^_^

I'm getting really excited, because when I get those grades up to something that my parents are good with, which is a C or B, or ESPECIALLY an A, I can spend even MORE time with my friends. I will be having sleepovers and going to my friends' houses so much more often. And, I will also get all the freetime in the world with my music! I can play video games, talk on the phone...text...all that stuff, and it will be pretty soon! I'm really excited for it. >-<

But yeah, I just really wanted to share that, because I'm just...I feel really good right now. ^^ So yeah! Anyways!

~Arianna

Another Updateth

Yes, updateth. Sounds weird, I know. But I don't really care! HAHAHA! Okay, so. I saw Alice in Wonderland. I freaking loved it! It was soooooooo great! The only thing that I am having an issue with is that I can't figure out if I'm imagining things or if the Mad Hatter and Alice had something going on. Like, that they were falling for each other. It certainly seemed like it!!! Eh! It will keep bothering me until I figure it out. I may have to watch it over again. But it would seem that I might actually be a little right, cause I've seen fanart with them and wallpapers with them together...I don't know. I think I'm losing my mind. HAHA! We're all mad here...lol. That ship has already sailed FAAAR away with me.

So I got most of my stuff back. My iPOD, Seizan, my stereo, Kat...now I'm working on getting house internet privaleges back, and my phone, and jewelry. Yeah, me and Tyler are still engaged. I don't know how this really works, that me and him are engaged but not dating. Oh well, him and my best friend broke up, so...and he is single right now, so I'm content. Yeah, I talked to him about everything, and mentioned that I might need a reminder from him every now and again that he still loves me and is going to keep his promise, even if he must tell me in secret. He chuckled and said, "I'm going to just get a book of sticky notes and put them all over for you one of these days...I don't know how many times I have to tell you, you're stuck with me forever." I couldn't help but giggle.

I am really getting excited right now...I can't wait to put my videos onto my iPOD. Seizan will be so pleased. Teehee~!

Oh, I have been dressing kind of boyish lately. O.o I wore a white tank top with a dress t-shirt over top of it, one that is for a guy. And I wore a tie with it, and jeans...normal shoes...my wristband...yeah. The only girliness about me right now is my makeup and my hair. Oh, and my chest. ;P LOL! AND! The fact that I don't have a cock. HA.

Me and my language....SHAME SHAME!!! I hope not very many people read these, because sometimes, I don't control my language, and I would be DEVASTATED if someone got offended...(actually doesn't care, but pretends to) Hense my almost never saying GOD anywhere. OH! I'VE SINNED!!! Nyeh...sorry. that was mean of me. (still kind of doesn't care, but tries to restrain self) I am sorry. Haha. I can't help it.

I live in a state full of religious people, and I'm NOT religious, so...sometimes it gets frustrating. I swear, as soon as me and Tyler DO marry, I'm getting Devin, and all three of us are MOVING OUT of this state. Somewhere that there aren't so many religious people all around us. I swear, where I live, they are around every corner, saying, "GOD LOVES YOU, YOU MUST COME TO MY CHURCH!!! JOIN US...JOIN US..." Okay, that was an exaggeration, but you get the point. I'm not religious and I would like to live somewhere that it isn't some kind of crime punishable by death to everyone around me. It gets kind of difficult having so many Mormon friends sometimes...

I've gone to church before, but...I just have no interest in it. Religion makes so many people so...ignorant. I mean, really...look past the bullshit, people...stop giving in so easily to a lie...nobody has even proven that God or Jesus or whatever whoever really existed, so come on...people need to question religion a little more. I mean really, how can someone believe that some average joe just randomly talked to God, and an angel who was a white native american, and then he could translate golden plates by looking in a dark hat with these weird looking stones in it? Yeah, no...I don't see it happening. (realizes that self is ranting and clears throat) Sorry. It just...it gets on my nerves so much sometimes....

Anyway. This past Sunday was the two year anniversary of my Great Aunt's death. I've been kind of sad, but, I don't think anyone can tell. Except for Tyler, I think. He asked what was up the other day, but I lied and told him I was tired...he called bullshit on that, but I smiled and said, "Oh well...Maybe I'll tell you later."

I think he gave me a reminder this morning. Sort of. He held out this money thing, and said, "Can I buy you? Forever?"
"Um...you don't have to, Tyler."
"Oh, wait, so you're paying to have ME forever?"
"No...you already own me...technically..."
"Oh..! YAY!" *smiles, hugs, and walks off*
ME:*just stands there for a moment looking completely lost*

Yeah, that was the dialogue between us this morning. It was amazing.

Oh, I'm practicing my calligraphy. You know, with Kanji and stuff. So far it looks pretty good, just as long as I stick to the correct stroke orders. Hehe...stroke orders...that sounds kinda dirty. LOL.

Anyway, I'm getting bored of typing here right now. I have several new poems and songs that I might post later if I feel like it and if I have the time. Bye bye for now.

~Arianna