What Do You Do?...

What do you do when
the one you hated most,
starts to talk to you again?

What should you do when
he explains himself to you,
makes everything clear and plain?

What would you do when
he gets close to you once more,
your heart starts to beat faster than a train?

Why is it that I used to hate him,
but now, he's in my head again?

Why is that I now wait for him?
Why is he there, more and more, in my brain?

Why can't I just let him go?

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This is about my first ex boyfriend at this school. The ones before this one were all about my second ex boyfriend. But this one's about the first. He recently started talking to me again, started asking me why I hated him so. Asked my why I continue to be cool with my second ex when my second ex was the one who hurt me more than he did. He started bringing many things back to light, made me realize that I hate him for doing nearly nothing to me, and I hang with the guy who hurt me to the point where I can't stand it (second).

And this is my recent reaction to him...

The Abyss

Why is it that once we are together,
why is it that now you're unsure?

Why are you questioning what we have?
Why are you thinking about that?

Why am I falling deeper into the Abyss?
Why am I thinking about what is?

...Why am I thinking of what might be?

The Abyss of thoughts,
better left unknown...
The Abyss of doubts,
better left alone...

Crimson River

The crimson flow,
your flaming veins,
your blood so ripe,
I wish it'd rain.

Rain from you,
The rain of wine,
Sweet, warm life,
Oh, how I would dine.

Crimson river,
Flows from you,
Drips onto my waiting fangs,
Hunger grips you too.

Notice You

I notice you,
When I'm not supposed to.
I see you,
When you don't know.

I feel you,
When I'm not aware.
When you're hurt,
I show how much I care.

I'm sorry if I'm bad,
If I go against,
All that you think is wrong.
I'm sorry if you,
Don't think we belong.
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This is about a realization I've had. If you want to know what it's about, just PM me

Gone...

Part 3: Looking Towards the Future...

Now that I've learned,
Now that I know,
I know what to do,
Know to let go.

I've wished you the best,
I've said my goodbye,
I have nothing to say,
Don't wish to hear lies.

Goodbye to you now,
I choose to move on,
I don't wish to hurt,
...and now I am gone.
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Well, this is the last part. I hope you've enjoyed my three part story. I think this poem says everything already. Simple enough, right? If you have any questions, about this situation or anything, feel free to comment or PM. Don't be shy...I don't bite.