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Dreams...
Dreams is that wonderful feeling when you know you're doing something right.
It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
It's that look when you see yourself in the mirror and smile, knowing who you really are.
Dreams is the one thing that drives me, soothes me and keeps me alive.
It's the world I live in, the world of dreams... This wonderful, wonderful world.
This fulfilling world...
This world that is in my heart and thankful soul.

My Different Realities

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Opening $10 commissons

10$ sketch commissions

I'm opening 10 dollar sketch commissions you guys! Any kind from head shot to full body, any sketch for 10$ (plus PayPal fee).

  • $5 for each additional characters
  • $3 for added color pencil
  • $3 for added Photoshop background
  • $5 special for color pencil coloring + Photoshop background

You must pay before I start

Please give ref/info of your character

I might decide to shade a picture or not, in a anime/soft shading or not. It depends really since I'm not always up for shading a picture (read fear of screwing it up). So you been forewarned. :|

Do's

  • anime characters
  • OC’s (please give ref)
  • fan OC’s (please give ref)
  • chibis
  • boy's love
  • Arthro characters

Don'ts

  • porn
  • fetishes
  • huge muscles
  • yuri

If your interested PM me or comment below. Prices are negotiable depending on how many add-ons you choose. If you have any questions feel free to ask.

TOS

  • The picture itself is yours but you can't claim that you drew the picture.
  • You can use the picture for personal purposes like avatars, graphics, blogs, wallpapers, and etc but you can't make money off of the picture.
  • I have the right to turn down any commission that I choose.
  • I have the right to add a commission to my online portfolio, websites, blogs, and etc.

Back from vacation

Hey guys! I hope you guys are doing okay.

Its funny, last Sunday I wrote a post that was just full of ranting about how much my life and family blows. Obviously I had a lot of anger so I just decided to not post it and just write out all my emotions. I planned on doing a more positive post since I got the bad stuff out the way but I never did till now haha.

I just came from Brandon's house, I was over there all weekend. I loved my time there since I haven't been over his house in a while. The only thing about my vacation is that "Angry Ovary day" (my personal word for that time of the month XD) decided to strike. Its funny because I had a dream about it the night before and I already packed my survival kit so I was fine. Brandon is so sweet and got everything that I wanted for me, chinese food, medicine, and bowls and bowls of cookies and cream ice cream. Oh my god, I was craving sweets ALL THAT DAY, I took out 3 bowls of ice cream and it was so damn satisfying. I wanted to go to Cold Stone for ice cream but I didn't have it in me so I just devoured theirs that they wasn't eating anyway. XD

I also took over his cable for 80% of the weekend to watch all my food and reality shows (since I don't have cable myself). While in the last 20% I watch him play Call of Duty: Black Ops online which was hysterical at times. The whole weekend is something that I truly needed since that Thursday I was extremely angry at my mom because she was playing her god awful music too loud. Which lead me to tell her that next day that I wanted to move to Canada to live in my own space. She was fine with it but wanted me to be safe and all that.

So yeah I'll probably go when my brother leaves to go back. Which means I have about a year to save up to go or something because I'm not sure how its going to work haha. I'm just glad I told my mom, I swore between the drama between my parents, my mom drinking, being ass hole half the time, and 1000 of other things I just want to run out of here.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that my parents made up so now my dad is living with us again and not acting like a tard anymore. My brother is still living with his friend but he may come back at some point. So yeah, things are back to normal and my family are not stressed like hell so I'm happy about that. And for taking good care of the house cat during the BS my dad is going to get me a puppy! I'm pretty excited about that and I really really want a Doberman Pincer! I fell in love with the one my dad's old landlord had. He was so sweet, strong and protective that I really wanted one myself! It was also a big dog something that I really adored about the breed! So yeah I'm hoping we find a Doberman Pincer puppy that I can have and take care of.

On the art end, I'm starting to draw again, mostly on the computer. I'm getting my major picture done while working and sketching others. I think that not being stuck on working on one picture really helped me love sketching and having fun again. Now that I'm not bonding myself to one picture, I can expand and try all kinds of things without pressuring myself. Even though I love showing my works online, it can really take the meaning of fun away since I'm concerned on the way it looks and such.

last thing before I go is that my readings is getting more attention and a bigger audience, which I'm excited about. I also just got an order from Brandon's friend which I was really happy about! It's my first order since July I think? I done a lot of free raffles and livestreams so my name is spreading and getting known! I really want this to be huge and each day I know its getting bigger! :) I can't sweat the small stuff and got focus on the bigger picture.

Okay, guys I just gave you the low down on my life. Hopefully I'll post something for you guys soon. Thanks for reading and all the support I've been getting, I love you all! Bye!

Winds of change

Yeah as the title suggests A LOT has happened since the last post about my life. I did a post about it all but its so me being half ass angry/depressed and I just didn't want to post that up there. I like to post the positive things that are happening in my life so I want to keep that trend going. :)

I will say that my dad and brother is no longer living with us because of the crazy line of events. It started when me and my sister confronted my dad because my dad was acting retarded for a good month and it effects the whole house. So we had a bad falling out that really upset me. Then a few days later my mom totally freaked out on my brother because he wouldn't' give her my dads number since he left since the falling out. Now my mom is totally broken while me and my sister are just "hanging in there".

Honestly despite everything that happened I'm pretty excited for my future yet again where before I was completely depressed and was stuck in a deep rut. But that is what happens when you live with toxic people, it effects you whether you know it or not. But since its only us three here I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. I can focus on the important things in my life and best of all WALK IN MY UNDERWEAR AROUND THE HOUSE.

So yeah things indeed have changed dramatically but I'm seeing the good in it all. I'm planning to get my drivers license and eventually make my way out of this damn house. I'm so sick of the drama and bull shit.

So yeah that's why I just disappeared, I just did my 25 hour stalking of people. Too depressed, lazy, stressed, and super lazy to do much more then hug and fav things. I even haven't touched my drawing table in about a month because I was just too stressed. Things are better now even though a lot of things are still uncertain :)

During all this I made some really cute wallpapers free for everyone on my Candy Sanctuary blog. I wasn't sure if I wanted to post them here since its not anime at all so I just stuck them on my blog. I also did a lot of raffles for my angel readings that went well. I also did a live stream of them on Saturday, that was tons of fun, when the video becomes available I'll show you guys! :D Oh and more great news, me another card reader are currently doing a raffle together that I'm really excited about.

I'm hoping my business picks up so I can MAKE THAT CASH, but I know that things are going to turn out fine. I just have to go with the flow. :) Oh I also made some adoptables too, its really fun so I want to experiment with it more. I'll post them for you guys soon! :D

I think that's it. A lot of things are negative so I can't really full the post up with 100% positive things but the event itself is a change that will positively effect my life! So it all works out! :)

Thanks for reading guys take care!

Real life Dramas

In a nut shell the last week in a half have been me healing myself from a screwed up back.

It started when I was trying to fix the pain I was feeling in my back for the last few weeks. Then somehow my whole back is achy and is in pain. Not HUGE pain but enough to make me very concerned. So I went to the free clinic since I have no insurance to see if can see a doctor and NO DICE. They told me go see my normal doctor (lol wut doctor) plus if I was able to see someone I would had to pay 20 dollars just to get that ( I didn't even have the money for it), which wasn't a rule before.

So I was pretty freaking upset, ragey, and straight up PISSED OFF. Walking out of there I could of cried manly tears of rage but Brandon was sweet enough to come with me to the clinic so I sucked all that up haha.

So then I just swept what happened under my emotional rug (to be vented out violently later) and decided to med myself, solution? TIGER BALM.

That shit kicks so much ass its not even funny. When I went to the store and saw it something in me was like "get it even thought you have no clue what it is" and upon Brandon's story about his friend using it for his karate injuries, I decided to give it a go. MAN THIS SHIT IS AWESOME. Each day I use it my back gets better and better! I couldn't even sleep, or sit down because my back would ache. Now a lot of that have been cleared up but I still have some way to go. I'm feeling some pain now but I'm DYING to do something besides be laid up in my room and watch anime (I need more yaoi titles) .

I started a really awesome picture and I can't even finish it because of my back and it SUCKS. My mood have been a damn roller coaster too but I'm more positive now, I have to practice what I preach right haha. I just want to draw and to not be able to but seeing everyone else's (great) work is a good slap in the face. I don't want to feel like I'm not doing anything in my life right now when I've been on the very track to put together my ideal life together. But I can't expect to rush this either because my back is eff'd up. The greatest irony of it all is the fact I'm waiting for my newest card deck the Archangel Raphael cards to come in the mail... Archangel Raphael, the angel of HEALING. >:T ( I'm not laughing universe ) So yeah the "total ass" award goes to the universe, you just lost a sponsor you jerk.

Other then that another great thing that happen is my older brother just moved in for a year. I never mentioned I have a brother because I haven't seen him in like a zillion years but last week he just popped up. I'm really happy about that because he's pretty awesome. He's a chef and used to rave, I thought I was the only one that did that in the family. Its funny because we have a lot in common, things I thought was just a random thing for me, but I guess its in the DNA. XD

So yeah, a lot of what I was doing is being held up by my back, but I'm getting better day by day. Hopefully I will be back on the computer full time sooner then later! :) Think happy thoughts about me guys.

Thanks for reading guys see you later!

LONG TIME NO UPDATE

Okay before we even get to my post I would like to say sorry for being so inactive. I meant to update this world ages ago but I was completely focused on something else which I will get too!

Well, I'll just state the obvious now and say that TheO have been on life support for the longest. Its summer and its even deader then normal. Its like damn, where did all the people go? Granted I don't even go to the fan art section anymore that much sadly, I just look at what my friends art and etc. Simply because I don't want to be caught up on trying to get to the front page and its been helping me just focus on my art in a more wholesome way. Which is funny because I didn't draw a whole lot in the last month because once again, busy with other things and no particular reason to draw. But I did finished a recent picture that I need to scan.

Also a lot of my friends have been slowly disappearing/being inactive and its sad. Every time I look in the backroom I have only one or two updates (when there ARE updates). But I can't even moan that hard since I've been doing the same thing. Though I have no reason to switch over to DA (god no) or to just stop coming here at all. I love this place for all its worth even though it has changed a lot over the last year alone.

I want to start commenting again (for the nth time) because I just want to raise a person's spirits in their art. I simply just don't give a rats ass about critiquing someone else's art or even getting better at it like I would try so hard to do a few years back. It was like my number one reason to draw to try to get better but I have to face it that I will always get better in my art no matter how much better I get. The point of drawing should about telling a story, a philosophy, a personal truth, and above all else HAVING FUN. My god I ruined so many nights because I was so hung up on how it looked and making it "perfect" instead of letting it flow naturally. Ironically, the long periods of time that I don't draw I seem to get a boost in skill. Mostly due to my observation skills that I keep in mind and it pays off when I can transfer the 1% that I can remember.

But anyway, I need to push myself to comment more since I've clearly lost the drive to.

Besides that the thing I was working on was my angel readings and almost two weeks ago I started charging for them. Last night I gotten my first order and another one tonight! I'm so excited because I've been working on this since last year and now all the work is paying off.

If anyone is interested it them (not in buying one) I have a blog that you can go too. I can always send you the link. :)

Lets see, I haven't done much in the candy sanctuary department, but I'm scaling back my efforts with it. Its just too much trouble trying to make pieces for it, store it SOMEWHERE, trying to sell it, and then ship it. Its hotter then the dickens and its just too much work for right now. I don't even have the space to really work on many pieces since I only have one table in my room. So I'm just going to do things for myself and focus on the artistic end of it. :)

Okay, I don't want the post to get too long even though I have a lot to say. I promise to try to update normally again but its been super hot.

Thanks for reading guys I love you! :)