THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.

Another Updateth

Yes, updateth. Sounds weird, I know. But I don't really care! HAHAHA! Okay, so. I saw Alice in Wonderland. I freaking loved it! It was soooooooo great! The only thing that I am having an issue with is that I can't figure out if I'm imagining things or if the Mad Hatter and Alice had something going on. Like, that they were falling for each other. It certainly seemed like it!!! Eh! It will keep bothering me until I figure it out. I may have to watch it over again. But it would seem that I might actually be a little right, cause I've seen fanart with them and wallpapers with them together...I don't know. I think I'm losing my mind. HAHA! We're all mad here...lol. That ship has already sailed FAAAR away with me.

So I got most of my stuff back. My iPOD, Seizan, my stereo, Kat...now I'm working on getting house internet privaleges back, and my phone, and jewelry. Yeah, me and Tyler are still engaged. I don't know how this really works, that me and him are engaged but not dating. Oh well, him and my best friend broke up, so...and he is single right now, so I'm content. Yeah, I talked to him about everything, and mentioned that I might need a reminder from him every now and again that he still loves me and is going to keep his promise, even if he must tell me in secret. He chuckled and said, "I'm going to just get a book of sticky notes and put them all over for you one of these days...I don't know how many times I have to tell you, you're stuck with me forever." I couldn't help but giggle.

I am really getting excited right now...I can't wait to put my videos onto my iPOD. Seizan will be so pleased. Teehee~!

Oh, I have been dressing kind of boyish lately. O.o I wore a white tank top with a dress t-shirt over top of it, one that is for a guy. And I wore a tie with it, and jeans...normal shoes...my wristband...yeah. The only girliness about me right now is my makeup and my hair. Oh, and my chest. ;P LOL! AND! The fact that I don't have a cock. HA.

Me and my language....SHAME SHAME!!! I hope not very many people read these, because sometimes, I don't control my language, and I would be DEVASTATED if someone got offended...(actually doesn't care, but pretends to) Hense my almost never saying GOD anywhere. OH! I'VE SINNED!!! Nyeh...sorry. that was mean of me. (still kind of doesn't care, but tries to restrain self) I am sorry. Haha. I can't help it.

I live in a state full of religious people, and I'm NOT religious, so...sometimes it gets frustrating. I swear, as soon as me and Tyler DO marry, I'm getting Devin, and all three of us are MOVING OUT of this state. Somewhere that there aren't so many religious people all around us. I swear, where I live, they are around every corner, saying, "GOD LOVES YOU, YOU MUST COME TO MY CHURCH!!! JOIN US...JOIN US..." Okay, that was an exaggeration, but you get the point. I'm not religious and I would like to live somewhere that it isn't some kind of crime punishable by death to everyone around me. It gets kind of difficult having so many Mormon friends sometimes...

I've gone to church before, but...I just have no interest in it. Religion makes so many people so...ignorant. I mean, really...look past the bullshit, people...stop giving in so easily to a lie...nobody has even proven that God or Jesus or whatever whoever really existed, so come on...people need to question religion a little more. I mean really, how can someone believe that some average joe just randomly talked to God, and an angel who was a white native american, and then he could translate golden plates by looking in a dark hat with these weird looking stones in it? Yeah, no...I don't see it happening. (realizes that self is ranting and clears throat) Sorry. It just...it gets on my nerves so much sometimes....

Anyway. This past Sunday was the two year anniversary of my Great Aunt's death. I've been kind of sad, but, I don't think anyone can tell. Except for Tyler, I think. He asked what was up the other day, but I lied and told him I was tired...he called bullshit on that, but I smiled and said, "Oh well...Maybe I'll tell you later."

I think he gave me a reminder this morning. Sort of. He held out this money thing, and said, "Can I buy you? Forever?"
"Um...you don't have to, Tyler."
"Oh, wait, so you're paying to have ME forever?"
"No...you already own me...technically..."
"Oh..! YAY!" *smiles, hugs, and walks off*
ME:*just stands there for a moment looking completely lost*

Yeah, that was the dialogue between us this morning. It was amazing.

Oh, I'm practicing my calligraphy. You know, with Kanji and stuff. So far it looks pretty good, just as long as I stick to the correct stroke orders. Hehe...stroke orders...that sounds kinda dirty. LOL.

Anyway, I'm getting bored of typing here right now. I have several new poems and songs that I might post later if I feel like it and if I have the time. Bye bye for now.

~Arianna

Of blob people, songs, poetry, and life

Okay I know. The title was really random. I'm in a strangly good mood. I truly do not understand it. But that's not important.

Okay so, I have actually been writing songs and poetry a lot lately. So far, they are all turning out really well. I have also been drawing. Blob people and normal anime stuff. My style keeps changing. TT^TT I can't make up my mind. Oh, and I like drawing tattoo designs, too.

So as for life...

Well I'm still alive. BWAHAHA! Ahem. I'm still waiting on Tyler with his promise, but I won't get my hopes up. I'm getting to know someone else right now. I met him just last Saturday at a friend's b-day party, and we are friends on Facebook now. He is only younger than me by a bit...like...two years... O.o TT^TT I'm a cradle-robber...Anyway. I am having trouble typing this. I recently put on some UBER long false nails for the hell of it, and painted the suckers black. X3 yippee! So the clothing style and makeup and hair of mine keeps changing. Some days I wear very little makeup, some days none, some days I look purely emotastical. HAHA. Funny made up word. I haz poked it. >_< And I like so many different styles of music right now that it is ridiculous. Namely the screamo techno mixes, and P!NK. Her new songs, that is. Especially the songs Ave Mary A and I Don't Believe You. I'm also learning how to sing some songs by Shakira in spanish. So fun, yet so difficult. Some of the lyrics must be said SO FAST! I just can't keep up!

So school. I'm getting my grades up, steady as she goes. But they are rising. Yay! I'll get my darling iPOD, Seizan, back soon! Yeah, I named him. Weird, I know. And yes, my iPOD is a boy. XD lolz. And once I get my grades up, me and my best friend are gonna hang out. We are both looking forward to it, because when there are no guys around to bother us, we have SO MUCH FUN!

I'm really wishing I could post some art here or on deviant...but I can't right now, so please bear with me. I honestly don't know when I will update my art. I'm sad about it. Because my art has gotten so pretty. I am thinking of drawing one of my characters, Lawlee, again. I made her while I was listening to Gothic Lolita by Emilie Autumn. Such a lovely song. X3 X3 X3

Well well. I don't know why I'm still typing this post. I think I'm bored. Also, I wanted to inform people, I have been making videos using still images from anime and some music I have. I made a dirty one for shits and giggles the other day. Heh heh. And I also made a cutesy one. I will try to put them up somewhere so people can view them, and then I will provide a link to the videos on here, alrighty? If anyone wants to see them. ^^

Alrighty, well, I'd better wrap this up. I want to surf the net with my free time. So fun. And I need to look up some strategies for Halo 3...me and my family just bought it yesterday and have been playing it, but with a great deal of trouble. >.> Irritation. Yes, I speak my emotions. O.o

I'll try to update more often, and maybe post some poetry & songs in a while. Bye bye for now~<3!

~Arianna

P.S. I am dying to see the new Alice in Wonderland... TT^TT Damn it all to hell...

Stressed and Hurt?

I wasn't sure what to call this post. But. Yeah. I didn't want to talk about how my fiance had broken up with me with plans to come back and marry me when he is 18...cause he is moving...really soon. And I'm dating his BEST FRIEND now. I don't know why. Well, now, someone that I am really close to is dating Tyler. RIGHT in front of me. And it hurts. A lot. I couldn't stop crying in my third class hour. And she was trying to talk to me about everything to cheer me up. I appreciate that she is there for me...but I wanted to hit her and yell at her and tell her it was unfair. That if it bothered her that I was with Alec, that I would break up with him and let her have him. But I couldn't do it. I am so sick of everything right now. I just want to go crawl in a hole and die. I really do. Just because all of this really sucks. I know it is life, and it happens. And that it will get better. But it hasn't gotten better since I was 10. And I'm sick of it getting worse. I keep holding on, and for what? It doesn't do anything, so why do I keep holding on? Maybe it is because everyone keeps saying that I need to. They tell me to think of all the people who care about me. And I do. And then I worry. And chicken out. I feel so stupid. I really do. I wish that I could be stronger and not care so much about things like these. I hate myself for all of this. I'm sorry to everyone I've ever put all this crap on. I'm sorry to anyone I've ever hurt. I'm sorry everybody.
~Arianna

Me& my fiance

This is me with my fiance. I am! sitting on his lap, and we ARE at school, and no, he wasn't wearing his hair in his face originally. But at the last moment, his hair slid down into his face. he got frustrated after I took the picture and he realized it took it at that precise moment.
~Arianna

Information and stuff.

Okay, people, for the record, I hope everyone truly realizes that my name is not really Tsumi, and that Tsumi is merely my internet alias...well, one of many. I will say that I do have a real name, and that I am quite willing to share it, for it can do no harm to me right now. My name is Arianna. I'm not saying this to sound rude or anything, but I got kind of sick of people always calling me Tsumi. So, I will be signing things as Arianna when I comment or post in my worlds. My artwork will still have my original siggy, though. Sooo...here's an update. I'm sure it was made clear the date that myself and my first kiss ex got back together...if not, it was on December 15th, and our engagement is going really wonderfully. This must be, by far, the longest relationship I have had. And I plan to keep it that way. Sooo...I know that there is probably no one who actually READS these posts of mine, since you all probably got to see how much of a naive wench I can be, but I will keep posting anyway, because I can, and because it helps me to vent a little. My parents have me on these...tracking sheets for school right now...it sucks. But it seems to be working, because my grades are gradually rising again. Lucky me. I have been drawing a lot of...uh...blob people lately. And listening to a lot of music. I even started dancing without it recently. Amazing...anyway...
~Arianna
P.S. This is me...