Aye kiddies it’s me Your Truly giving you another update!
Before I start I just want to say… How retarded are people these days… Seriously… I won’t say which picture or the “artist” but to bluntly take a picture off of deviant art and slap it on here and to go along with it saying “I can copy any artist style” and “I took art classes all my life and the problem is that we were taught to copy another’s style” or some BS is mind blowing. Then I check the gallery and all the stuff were stolen because nothing has the same style AT ALL. And once again it’s “I can copy any artist style” nonsense… I feel bad because she/he can’t even attempt to draw a shitty copy of anything. Fucking sack of shit… Anyway, I reported the artist and hopefully the artist will get banned. I’m surprised no one even spilled the beans that the shit is stolen in the comments because everyone is praising the jerk…. I would like to but I like to just report shit and call it a day and hope someone else just say it “hey this isn’t your work LAWL”.
I shouldn’t let this get under my skin but it’s hard…. It really is…
Anyway, I got great news! I’ve started a polymer clay blog called “Cute Clay Tutorials” showing tutorials and things on how to make cute foods charms and things like that. I just made is yesterday and made a new post today. Please take the time to check it out. There’s going to be a new post there everyday so it there’s always something to look forward too.
http://cuteclaytutorials.blogspot.com/
In other news, I have drawn two pictures. One of a new Male mew and one of my character transformation of kyandi if anyone remembers. I’ve been posting pictures in my DA account and trying to make some really good ones to throw up there as well. I’ve have edited my pictures of my newest charms so I should have another one up there and here soon.
I need to find a new place to make them because the craft table has been taken over by my sister lip gloss making stuff. And that vendor that she had. The profit was really disappointing but she made loads of connections. People want her to sale her lip glosses in their clubs and other cool stuff. Really exciting! She also has another vendor coming up this Sunday so maybe she will make more there. The event that she was in before was really sucky in the first place so I’m sure that was the reason for the poor profit.
So yeah, I’ve been super busy trying to make this internet stuff work. Once I get in the groove of things I know things will get easier and less stressful. My graduation is next Thursday and I’m wondering how the hell I’m going to get there… I’ll hitch a ride XD…
Till next time!
Another update on yours truly’s life
Well, two Fridays ago was my last day as a student at ITT Tech. Man it was one of the best days of my life. We had to show our final projects but of course had the dry run first. My final project was gag skits on guitar hero and ITT Tech. My class mates loved it. I didn’t think it was going to get as much feed back as it did and that made me feel much better about it. Which reminds me that I need to throw it up YouTube since it’s required.
When we started our projects the some of the directors and staff were there. And my class mates went up and told what programs we worked in and what our projects were about. The first guy Juan went on and on about his and it was funny/embarrassing because he’s a bit off and everyone was like “get on with it” kind of look and stuff.
When it came to mine I stood up and said blah, blah I hope you like it crap. The thing that got me was when it went to the second skit it, was a gag of ITT Tech and how crappy the school was…sorta. And with the staff and directors there I thought I was going to get in trouble, because I went too far with some of the “jokes” which were basically facts about the experience you were going to have there. The staff knows what goes on there, more then anyone here so I was laughing a lot under my breath thinking I was going to be in hot water. But luckily nothing happened and the career services lady said I did a good job. So I was super happy.
And all man I was super nervous because my friend uhhh, I had a fake name for him but I can’t remember it… Victor that’s it. Yeah victor hasn’t shown up yet and he was really close to failing. If you fail capstone class your ass is going to be kicked out. And let me tell you this dude stayed a year more then he was support to. And this is a two year school. He told me the only reason he failed so many times where sheer laziness… I was like WTF and for a person that knows about what being lazy is about I was shocked. I would never let that get in my way in school. But anyway I told him at the beginning of the quarter that this was a “semester of change” (lawl Obama) and he was going to pass that class if it was the last thing he was going to do. So all this time I kept on him. I told him about who many weeks were left and made sure he was doing his capstone. I wasn’t letting his “laziness” hinder him anymore… As far as school goes XD…
So after like 2 or 3 projects went up I saw him come into class. And I was like “YES!!” I thought this man was going to fail for sure but I still had faith... Then I think one of his friends mentioned before that he was coming… So any way after all the projects were shown he presented his and showed what he was working on that fucked him over many times then what he made in like 5 hours all last night. It was really good and I was impressed. With that said he passed the class. I was like “FAWK YEAH!!” we jumped around and stuff after class was over and only us and some other people were left.
After that me, my boy friend, friends and class mates talked and hung out. We went to the mall checked out at some stores and ate from this awesome Japanese food spot call “sakura”. The best part was one of Victors friends that went to ITT Tech was telling me how she admire my capstone and drawings. I was like 8D….. Stop feeding my ego! But I was really happy that it gotten great reviews! Then we were talking on the bus ride home. She knows Japanese and telling me to get the Japanese coach for DS. I surely will when I find it. Then she starts explaining about how she, her boy friend, and friends were starting some kind of graphic design company or something. She asked me if I wanted to join and asked me for my email so we can talk about anime, art, and etc. But by that time my other bus was coming so I had no time to give it to her. She said that she was coming to graduation so I can get her info then. It seems promising and she’s really cool so I was happy.
Then I and Tom went over to my house and hung out. It was really fun; I kicked his ass in soul caliber. At the end it was 20 to 2, freaking epic! I was sad that he had to go home, but he came over once since then and he’s coming over tomorrow. Oh, and did I mention this last Friday was our 2 month anniversary! It’s funny because he told me this, I wasn’t even thinking about it XD… I’m so glad that he told me that. Our relationship so far has been slow and sweet. I’m happy that I was able to met and get together with him. He’s a very sweet and caring guy.
I won’t keep anybody here anymore so I’ll end this post. I’m still trying to get everything together as far as TCS… I made a blueberry tart yesterday. I need to take more pictures of my stuff and post it around.
So till then! Have a great week and I hope school is treating everyone well!
Yes another update with your favorite fox, yours truly!
Man, I just found out that my earphones just died and I’m pissed. I had those cool DJ one that rapes your ear with comfort and what have you. And just like that they died. They were acting weird at school friday but I didn’t think much of it since the school computers act stupid them selves. So now I’m using the earphones that have the microphone with it that I borrowed from my boyfriend. It’s really loud but has barely any bass which is really important to me XD… Now I got to keep my eyes and ears out for a good pair for a cheap price. The ones I have didn’t even last 2 years. :... and it’s the coby brand. I swear I had numerous products from them and at first its good stuff but then out the blue before 2-3 years it turns into crap.
But moving on…
My final project for school is at near completion! It’s called capstone and it’s just a major project that you have to work on all quarter and present to the dean and teachers. After that I’m done with ITT. My graduation is next month on the 24th or 27th? It’s crazy because it’s the time where people are having the “I’m heading into school” posts but I’m done with mine and maybe for a while. I’ve thought long and hard on what I wanted to do with my life. I was thinking of going to art school but I thought I can just learn on my own on my own pace. Then thinking of the career that I want to have its not really required either. I want to make cute things and just do what I love for a living. It’s the same dream I had for a few years now if any own have been reading my post since that long ago.
I don’t know it almost feels like a stupid move. To just go and try to start a business when I have no real job. This reminds me, I’m working with my dad for 20 bucks an day, finally a break through. But anyway, I can’t get a real job for whatever reason besides the a-hole economy. Not going back to school for a higher degree not even in an art school. But I don’t know, I’ve listen to my heart even when it says seemly stupid things when it ends up being the best choice after all. And its saying to start the business or just leading me where starting the business is my only option to make some cash for doing something that I love to do.
So yeah, I’m taking the biggest risk of my life really. But I have confidence in what I’m doing even though it sways sometimes. It’s just the fear of it failing which is normal, hell I have a fear at failing at a lot of things in life. Trying to belly dance freely, trying animation and etc etc… but it’s not a “dead end” kind of feeling. Like I’m going in the wrong direction kind of thing. Like when I was with my toxic friend and the whole comic thing… It wasn’t a dead end; it was like I was going completely backwards but you get the point.
But I just have to work. Work hard and I’ll have want I want sooner then later… So I’m just getting more active on here and DA and planning to open more accounts for my art and charms and things. I want things to work and I want to have fun and make a living out of this. I know I can, I won’t believe that I should be forced into something I don’t want to do just because it logically seems like the right choice… There’s room for everybody in this world to do what they want to do. So I’m going to do what I want to do.
With that said yeah, the candy sanctuary is still around and will be up and running soon. I made some new charms and I had borrowed my boyfriend’s camera so I should have some pictures of it soon. Among other things that I have plan on doing as far as products. But I want to resign the candy sanctuary and start fresh and new. New characters and new design. I want it to have a café theme with characters based of foods or something. I’m not sure what will come out of the new redesign but I’m excited to work on it when school is over. As well as designs for charms and the like.
There are so many things I want to do when school is done. Drawing is a definite one, I’ve been lacking so much and I want to get better and just draw everyday like I use to do. Man how many times did I say that haha. I really want to try new things and just be the best artist I want to be.
I want to get active in my clubs and in the TMM section. It needs mad love. I want to learn Japanese. Start animating in flash. Just everything. Even though I’m in a uncertain time of my life this is the first time of my life where I felt like I have freedom. Freedom to do whatever I want, and to be put through the roughest year of my life the pass 2-3 years I’m going to seize this time and do what it take to get me where I want to be in life.
So yeah… That’s where I stand today… <:3
I know things will work out in my favor…
So what are your dreams? What do you plan to do in the future? What is it that you TRULY want to do even if your not planning to pursue it?
Hey hey everyone! Here’s another update on my life! 8-D
Once again a huge update, I don’t know how to say this but… I’ve gotten my first kiss. D:
Yeah, these virgin lips have finally found another. And I would advise to take cover but seeing that this happened last Friday I know nothing bad happened afterwards. In fact what happened after the kiss was the best part of the day!
That day we hung out at the King of Prussia mall after I left school. Going to the lego store and making some bad ass cars. He tried making a tank like car while I throw my creative edge into the pits of hell making a total abomination of a car XD. All I did was piled legos on top of one another and added wheels to them, but that’s not the best part, I tiled the tower of legos so it was at an angle THEN added wheels. It was epic for sure. I made another car too that was more like a car then a wall of legos. So someone left their chick-fil-a cow toy there and I made a spot where he sit and ride in my car of future death. GOD I love the lego store. So we raced them on this ramp so we can see how epic the explosion of legos will be. My tiled tower of death didn’t fall apart as awesome as we thought which kinda sucked because I wanted to see something awesome. His wheels just popped off the bottom when it hit the end of the track. It was funny as hell. I raced my other car with the cow in it and the cow flew out of it and onto the floor. It was truly badass.
After we took over the lego store for about an hour we headed to the big borders with the love seats I would die to have in my cramped room. He read fairy tale when I read some beading and craft books and magazines. I never realized that there were so many great ideas floating around out there like that. I hope I can get an original idea that can be my trade mark product one day, but till then I shall have fun trying to find it.
Anyway after we left from the mall to downtown it started to rain and gay shit so we went into the borders there to escape the rain till it calmed down. As soon as it looked safe and we headed down towards Penns landing which has an awesome huge river which you can gawk at trash and birds. It starts raining hard again and thunder storming so we hid under a store roof thing. You know when there’s a corner and the store doors are imbedding in the corner and you can walk across in front of them to the go across instead of going around the sidewalk corner? Well if I blew some brain cells I’m sorry, some things I can’t explain for the life of me >__>.
Anyway we were under there and he the freaking gull to ask if I still wanted to hang out as well suggest that maybe cut the date short. I was like “holdup young brother, no rain is going to stop this right here!”>:C… I want my days worth of my cuddly boyfriend since I will go through withdraw of fun through the weekend anyway…” He agreed and we kept the date on. The rain let up too which was awesome because my hair doesn’t like water or moisture in general. So we’re skipping along the sidewalk when my fox senses where tingling. I felt like that we should go to the art museum steps like we wanted to do before, but since it was a bit late we decided to do it some other time. I was a bit iffy but I almost always listen to my instincts so I told him that I wanted to go the art museum steps instead.
So we turned our asses around and went the other way. So we get there and its night time now and there’s a concert going on right on the steps! I don’t know who was playing but we decided to just chill out on the huge statue that has some steps and fountains on the bottom you can sit on. MAN, were those the most awkward hours of my life. We both were clearly thinking about it…about KISSING. I mean I kissed him on the cheek last time I said good bye and he said he wanted to kiss me before on G-chat. So yeah…. The music was going and they were playing some good stuff. There were huge lights around the area so the park wouldn’t be so dark so we saw each other in some really good lighting.
We were sort of talking about it and how his first one went. I was soooo shy that I didn’t look at him much. I wanted to kiss him myself but my boldness would only come but so far with my more rational mind in control as well. Man, it was just soooooo weird, like the atmosphere was perfect, the night was beautiful, we were hearing some awesome music which some was romantic! I was cold and he had his extra hoodie so I had that and we were huddled together talking and stuff. But alas I didn’t kiss him and the concert was over and all the people were leaving the steps. I told him maybe we get up to the steps and see the awesome view and we went up to the curb to cross the street. He said that it looked like that they wasn’t going to let people up there since they have to pack everything up and stuff. So we hang at the statue some more and I said that I would kiss him once all the people left that came from the concert. But by that time it was time to leave. So we head down the steps on to the park path.
I have no clue what happened, I don’t know what entity suddenly slipped into my body, for all I knew I was in another parallel universe where I just did what my brain told me but I snapped. I snapped and said “Just kiss me already! I want to get this over with!” For those few moments it seemed like time stopped, I honestly didn’t know what the hell fell before me to say that out loud as I did. But I did and I meant it in every bone in my body. He just looked at me, smiled, and said “okay?”… I was surprised he didn’t start shaking me around to get whatever bugs that were in my head out. XD
So then I’m like “there over there!” Pointing in the darkest parks of the park where no one can see us. I didn’t want ANYONE to see us. I’m just so shy and private that I’m willing to kiss in a part of a park where a body could be buried in. So we walked down the park path were it was dark since there weren’t any real lights around and parked it on a rotted bench… Romantic. But I wasn’t in the mood to delay this any longer; I was ready to have my first kiss! So then we sat there, I wasn’t looking at him much… I expressed how this was like getting a needle or whatever nonsense I was relating this too. So then he inched up to me and finally he said you know close your eyes, so I did. I felt his face get closer to mine. I got a wee bit tense and was ready impact. Then Wham-O the bird has landed and his lips were on mine for a few seconds. I was surprised that it lasted as long as it did which were just about 4-5 seconds but I thought it was going to be those quick ones.
And like that it was over and I was rendered useless because I was speechless. I finally done it, I got my first kiss and it was from something that I cared about and he wasn’t bad looking either! So we sat there still and chat a bit. How was it? Was it as nice as you thought it was going to be he said? I couldn’t do anything but said yes, because it was. I wouldn’t give it up for anything in this world. Oh, and he also said I had soft lips hehe… He leaned in for another one but I moved my head out the way. My shyness kicked in again and I just wasn’t ready, just… So soon, I don’t know! XD… His head went down and we both laughed while I hugged his head.
So a few moments later while he was saying something fire works start going off! What amazement! Just like that it seemed like the universe was celebrating my small rhapsody of love. I got so excited because we wanted to see fireworks all summer and here at this time and place here they were! So being the big kid I am I run out into the parking lot to get a better view and yelling at him about the fireworks. He was surprised too and we held each other and watched the fireworks together. I even gave him a kiss! I was like “come here you!” ha-ha. I swear I never case to amaze myself… Anyway the fire works were just gorgeous and they were right be hide the art museum so we had an awesome view, besides the trees being in the way a bit on the bottom.
After that we went home like champions! I have to say that’s one of my best nights I ever had, may be the best ever. I came home and told my sister and mother and they were all “Awwwwwww” he-he.
So yeah, that’s the story of my first kiss beginning to end. We hung out after that too and I’m like more and more. He’s so caring and such. Wouldn’t want to give him up for anything. :3
I have to update in a more timely matter so the smaller details won’t get fuzzy and stuff. Plus I want to let people know that I’m alive even when I don’t post or comment. I’m glad everyone is taking the time to read this! I’ll post again soon.
Till then peace, love, and ramen!
Howdy howdy everyone!
How’s everyone feeling? I hope everyone is okay…
Well, the last few weeks were definitely eventful. I really don’t know where to begin…
Well, I have a boyfriend. D:
Well, I suggest running back into your homes, closing your blinds, and possibly grabbing hold to any holy book that you believe in because I’m pretty sure the world is going to end soon. And to continue to clear the air, yes, he is my first boyfriend.
The funniest part of it all is that we both thought that the other just wanted to be friends. Nothing was said but it was what we thought. Since I met this guy (lets just call him Tom XD) I knew he liked me cause I’m just cool like that. We had class one quarter and hang out after school and play the Wii and some times before school and just talk or whatever.
Of course even thought I knew he liked me I wasn’t all that interested but as time went on he kinda grew on me. This sorta pissed me off because I didn’t want another crush and the ordeals with that shit. But I did and the fucking last day he was suppose to come to school I was going to tell/ask him about the subject and more importantly get his damn e-mail but he didn’t show up. And I was like “fuck that’s why I nip these kinds of feelings in the bud” >:C…
Anyway, some time later I knew his friend (the one I hung out with those few times and this was before we even start hanging out) probably had it so that’s when I ask him for it. So that’s when we start talking on the internet and hopefully maybe I could tell him but I’m not that bold sooo yeahhhh, I kept my mouth shut. But that’s when shit start getting real confusing because we would flirt and flirt and flirt but nothing seemed to amount to anything or he would mention other girl some times too. Which really throw my head on a damn roller coaster ride because of everything in school so I figured that he pretty much knew but was not interested anymore.
Then at the same time I was hanging out with his best friend (lets call him victor) and I knew he liked me too but I wasn’t interested in him like that, but goddamn its so much fun hanging out with him with our nonsense nothing fights. Then one miraculous Saturday night when I was staying up playing the Sims 3, Tom IM me saying that how awkward this phone conversation was with this girl. He was super frustrated that no matter how many hints he laid out for her she didn’t seem to get it or whatever. And boy, how ironic is that life for him to randomly confide in me in such a situation I know ALL TOO WELL 8D…
So I was there for him being a good FRIEND and all, even tried to see if see if she just dense or just wasn’t into him like that by holding an investigation via internet and all that CSI shit. After concluded that she might not be into him he finally said if he wasn’t trying to talk to this girl he would have asked me out but HE was in the friend zone. For those few minutes I could of swear that the world stopped turning. After the entire BS my instincts was right as always and the cat was finally out the fucking bag.
So then I was a bit hesitant but I took that SOB and rode it till the wheels fell off. Telling him that I was interested before he left school. AND OF COURSE he would get it THEN. He said he was interested since he first was talking to me. Finally everything was coming together perfectly and making sense. He was totally kicking himself in the ass because I liked him all this time and he didn’t catch on. I was kicking myself in the ass because I didn’t say anything sooner despite my instincts in the first place.
But at the same token I could definitely feel that Victory had feelings (since we were hanging out more and more) for me and I didn’t want it to seem like I was going be hide his back to date his best friend. Tom felt the same way too, and we didn’t want to destroy this circle of friends by any means.
So we decided that we were going to tell him about it and he did that day or two later. Victor was the totally cool about me and tom dating it even though he really liked me and I can’t thank him enough for that. He could have been a complete douche bag and said no or cut one of us out of his lives because he felt hurt. But he didn’t and I’m so thankful.
It feels like I’m finally getting what I really want in life. Awesome friends, a boyfriend *HackwheezesomethingIwantedforlikeayearwheezehack* and still very late by my peers standards (or anyone else’s) but I always disliked my peers “standards” of anything so um yeah ha-ha.
We hung out a few times in the last 3 weeks and I’m really enjoying this, I never felt this way about anyone… and its like… exciting LAWL… I got to type up our little adventures really soon. Especially our late date, it was fucking epic (at least to me) and all we did we cuddled most of the end of it…
So yeah, a REAL update and not just the same thing except happy or sad about it XD… I also got my drawing groove back and drawing stuff that I like. I have to keep it up and draw whenever I can… And post for a change and the usual sorry for lazy ass no updating club non-sense… I’m finally commenting again so we’ll see what happens. The club is still running and stuff so ummm yeahhhh…
I hope everything is going well for everyone else and I’ll see you guys in about a week or so!
Have a good day!
