Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.

Have fun.

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[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]

[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]

where have i been all your life?!

i know, i know.
you've all been suffering from severe withdrawal due to my lack of existence
well, i assure you, it is not because i hate you, no, i hate you for different reasons ha, kidding o Do..no seriously, i am o-o

i am just me, which as my brainwashed minions you would all know, and/or, not even notice either way as you are too lost in thought of my greatness, or pineapples..or..ketchup..

i do, however, sincerely apologize for my tendency to vanish off the face of the interwebs...i do not mean to hurt you, and i hope your shrines continue to have my face o 3o

ANYWAYS, i came on to say a little random nothingness, just to say hey, i still exist, i am working on things..kind of..and yeah...hi there mah minionizzles.....i should really stop trying to do that o-o

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behold the not so epic tale of a not so fascinating moment of my failness

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*ahem*

as per my usual self, i am quite fond of keeping my laptop files organized and neat, with complex systems of folders within folders within folders, etc.

so every now and again i go into my file tree and do some cleaning, as i am near constantly adding new images, plus there is the occasional double--or triple--which needs to be removed and/or measured up to the other(s) to see which is best; and then at times i must do some hunting to find the artist of images i have obtained--primary from tumblr--which did not have a source, however, despite the fact i dont just post these images and tend to use them personally, i still prefer to have the name so that i can properly title the work in my folder and for that 'just incase' i should ever use it i shall have the correct person to credit *nod*

well, i decided to do this tonight, for i had added several lovely sebciel pics and knew i recognized some but wasnt entirely sure enough if i had them or not...and thus began my tangent off into file workings... this can also lead to more additions due to jumping down one rabbit hole than another, though i do make my way back, but with more images for arranging XP

i have just now finished doing another round of this organization, mostly my images files, mostly 4 main folders in particular--i say main because the 'main' folders have folders within folders within folders...so there were many folders worked in, but overall most of what i did was in the four 'main' ones rather than a complete item overhaul--

all this took me 7 hours...SEVEN HOURS...

...there are times when this OCD and perfectionism thing i have going on can truly warp reality for me...actually...that happens a lot..a lot........but..anyways...

after all this time, the only bit of anything left in my mind is that i am so hungry voraciously right now...

i was going to eat the shake i had in the freezer whilst watching some of my youtube vids, however it is now 7:30 am and there is no time left for ice cream -____-

EDIT: it is now 11:50 am...i cant sleep, and even if i could i would only get about three and a half hours (from when i first intended, which was 10:15, now it is just a little more than two hours) as i have to shower and do all that post showering things that i do, since i apparently have a doctor's appointment at 6 pm and i am currently several days unshowered, and you can only go so long before it is blatantly obvious how disgusting you are......LE SIGH *flails wantonly in a puddle*

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i felt i had to share this with my world of nobody because it was an immense weirdness, one of those peculiarities which cannot go unspoken

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yup.
...this is my brain now...

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EDIT!! where i have been and will be...

i have actually not been able to do much of anything on the internet or my laptop for several weeks now, and with these issues i had always believed i couldn't post here--pretty much anywhere else really T 3T--because of the wayward nature of links and what will or won't load, etc...some things work other don't..it's a mess of ire inducing uncertainties and i wish i knew why the hell it was happening...but it looks like tomorrow i will be finally taking it in! :D
EDIT: Well, i took it in to the geek squad, he looked through things, changed one thing or two and put on something meant to help analyze my computer content, not the hardware, to be clear. Aaaaaaaand after doing that and deleting a few unnecessary and possibly hindering things, then running the analyzer and it found nothing. Not a freakin, damn thing. There is one item i have not been able to delete and i think may be causing at least some of the issues and that is McAfee. I don't know if it is corrupted or the actual macfee site or whatever is screwed up or what, but it won't load or uninstall because it freezes the program. Just another stupid problem that has come to join the haunting of the technological existence of me. Sigh..sigh. I personally still maintain the theory that my harddrive is the issue, somehow, someway..yes. It needs to be taken in again where perhaps they can remove the unresponsive McAfee, see if that does ANYTHING to assist, and if not i want them to check out the hardware...cause this is pissing me off more. I already missed the jack hunting zOMG event on gaia and it looks like i will miss the opening of the new area, DMS, also in zOMG, plus i have missed SO MANY DAYS of gold earning possibilities!!! I NEED TO REGAIN GOLD FROM PURCHASED CURRENT DREAM AVIE ITEMS D:< Yes, i enjoy this virtual world. If you have a life then go be apart of it, cause i don't and this is what sustains my restless pointlessness of not having one. Yeah, i don't have a life and never have. Really makes the reason i get the amount of view i do here seem rather strange. All i do is ramble about crap, and if not that then it is general updates of things i finally get around to posting here. ...i am going to shut up now, just wanted to update, you people weird enough to come here. Probably only lost souls catching a tag thinking it will lead to something of meaning when in fact it is asinine babble. *pop* ..yup.

Living without internet or my computer abilities at all(since i backed up my things, i couldn't go saving or starting new documents to in my folders) sooo..quite sadness indeed. i have been necessarily forced into get my large reading pile out of the way, though. Not that i dislike reading--i quite enjoy it--, i just take forever to around to it--or anything--, but when i do i get through things fast. Two books complete, some writing, and some art...knocking down a few of those pillars which needed and still need to be brutally attacked. However i must say going back to long hand writing, for extended periods of time, is painful XP it has been close to three years since i have done such...i am a bit better now but still *cracks wrists and fingers*

i really don't think this going is to go through, but if it does, then this all is why i haven't been posting or faving or thumbs uping, though i have been able to view things, so points still to people there *nod* and you had best enjoy those points people....you.had.best. T 3T

i wrote a much longer and more explanitory post on this for my deviantART, which then, of course, didn't go through. But i had spent so much time on it that i did the annoying process of transfering it a word doc, saving it, moving it to a flashdrive, going to the desktop downstairs, logging in there, and getting it all set and posting through that. ...as you may have noticed, using the desktop i prefer not--if you haven't, then watch this mysterious red light that is moving swiftly on the wall *moves around laser pointer*--. It is rather dark in that room due burnt out bulbs--forever out it seems-- and while i like darkness, it isn't good for the eyes. Especially since our desktop is a fairly big screen, as it is a media type computer...so bright, large screen you sit close to in a relatively darkened room for hours on end...yeah... Though due to all this laptop chaos, i do occasionally pop on there to check certain things on certain sites, but only briefly.

soooooooooooo, if this doesn't go through, then....you'll all live. probably.

EDIT:hey! it actually went through...who would have thought..sigh...the strangeness of this issue is frustrating indeed. >:/

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