Sup minions, how goes things?
Yeah whatever about you, this is about me.
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..no, shhhhhh shhhhhhh....i didn't mean that *pets intensely* you know i love you darlings, you know it......*whispers* you know... > 3<
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Anyways! I decided to pop up to announce that i have been contemplating changing my avatar!! :O Yes, i realize that is a tiny, random, not really worthy of mentioning change, however i wanted to say something about something. It also shows my existence and i have been trying to be better with assuring all of ye that i am, in fact, alive.
I suppose i also felt this could be worthy of a post because i so very very VERY rarely change my avatar here, or anywhere really. When i find something i like i tend to stick with it for a good long while. That actually applies to nearly every aspect of my life. o-o For example, I own several articles of clothing, wear only a few constantly, and some of them have holes in them--the two pairs of shoes i wear regularly both have holes and are falling apart--but i still keep and wear them all because i heart them and they are technically in tact. Plus some aren't things i actually wear outside...often...
Okay enough of my sloppiness.
*ahem* Ever since theOtaku had its huge overhaul and got rid of myOtaku, i have had a total of TWO avatars. Yup, two. And now i felt like it was time to change, not sure why, but i just did and so i am going with the flow of my feels. One should always flow with the feels. Unless it is about things that could get you arrested, then you probably shouldn't. First you need to make sure you won't get caught, THEN go with it.
For a long while i maintained this site as one where i show my love through imagery for my second OTP, sebciel--sebastian and ciel from the anime kuroshitsuji--which you no doubt noticed considering the theme of this little world of mine. They have also been what my two avatars featured since the myOtaku change. HOWEVER, i am considering having a sesskag avatar. I will likely be altering my age-long maintaining of avatars and instead trying to have new ones a little more often, so i will likely switch between the two, or maybe even have some OTHERS. GASP! OH MY! WHAT IS THIS BLASPHEMY?! I know, i know, it is a daring and unexpected announcement from your beloved leader, but never fret, i have not been possessed nor infected with parasites that alter my very nature. I was sure to lock the cage more securely this time.
Since my decision I have been working on a few sesskag avatars that had been lingering sadly in my files, unloved and yearning to be used, and i feel like since i have done so, one of them deserves to be shown. Some i have actually done a lot of work on. Why do some people make the weirdest color changes on things? I mean, Sesshoumaru isn't orange, why is he orange? *eyeroll* No idea... Currently i am debating between several, some i have done stuff too, and some i haven't touched and just simply have. ... GAH! What shall i do, sweetlings? WHAT SHALL I DO!? IT IS SO HARD TO PICK!!!!!!
There are nine that i am contemplating, which i CAN cut down to four i think...but of those four, three have at least two versions to choose from--cause they were ones i messed around with--...so it seems as though there are even MORE choices to be made....
UUUGGGGHHHSSSSSS WHY SO HARD?!
and being a llama just makes it harder!!
So my little minions, guess what....come on, guess >:3
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No, that's entirely wrong. I already filled my murder quota for this week..i mean, cough, ..eh, whatever.
In fact, I am preparing to get everything here and updated!
ISN'T IT SOME SORT OF INSANITY?!
ISN'T IT!?
ME! DOING THINGS!
RIGHT?!
Okay, that's enough thinking poorly of your master.
...Seriously. Stop it. *smacks your hands away from my face*
*ahem* Anyways, i did some prep work in my own overly OCD manner, and i arranged all the pieces that need to be put up. *nod*
And, my dear lovelies, there are approximately seventy doodles and drawings.
Yes. I'm not kidding. Seventy, SEVEN ZERO.
However, for you peeps on this site of ours, there will be about fourteen pieces that shan't be put up. Now these aren't going to be, because i will be having them stashed in my scraps on deviantART and therefore in a hidden realm of shame that only those with forethought to watch my scraps will see. But if you do REALLY want to see those old ugly things, if you go to my deviantART gallery and press the Browse or Scrapbook links at the topish line, you will be able to.
itsufer.deviantart.com
Do not have any expectations, let alone high ones.
Another thing to note in this general realm, there are a few more of the drawings which have adult content, primarily nudity, some sexual, which i won't be posting here either. If i truly adore a nudity piece then i may censor it for; but, for the most part, your perverse minds shan't be given the unmarked luxury on this site. Should you have a deviantART account, going to my gallery you would then be able to find them, but you must have that account to do so, seeing as i shall place them under the banners of mature content. *sigh* Yes, i know that i too am an ironic lamb of perversion, however i do not wish to incur the wraths of mods and subsequently be banished.
Back to the postables, do keep in mind that the majority of these are old, out of date, not my current style sort of things. I will say when the newest stuff appears though, never fear darlings. *overly affectionate, bordering creepy head patting*
Also, i can't say for sure how long it will take to reach that place of complete updatery considering the whole...seventy drawings issue. - _ -
There are a few pieces that still need to be scanned and i intend to do that either tonight or the next one oooooorrr.. the next one. Oh you know me, minions, procrastinatey and all. *mischievous snickers*
Whelps, that's all then i suppose. I shall go back to preparing for the obvious apocalypse which is surely to be coming after this absurd change in world dynamics that is me.
Be naughty, my pancakey ones of gooberdom. o 3o
soooooo...i have a few things to mumble at you all because i felt i should reassert my presence as not dead as well as fill all you delicious minions with new information to add to your lists of me . u .
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topic numero uno
--not to be mistaken with the pizza or game--
**ignore my ugly fingers XP **
the last few months I have been making a lot of these little crochet hearts, they are easy and cute, and keep my fidgety hands busy whilest i watch things; perhaps one day i shall get a few more pics of those...
anyways, this particular hearty i made as a valentine's gift for one of my dear friendlekins, who DESPISES valentine’s day…so, of course, i sent her this purple heart o 3o <3
after i had taken these, i did decide to sew in a loop of yarn at the center dip of the heart bumps so that it could hang for i knew that she would inevitably loose it in the chaos of her room, but i then spaced on taking a picture once i finished it T - T i can sense that you are likewise feeling the pain as this oversight, never fear, someday, after extensive and costly therapy, you shall be able to move on...but only with the help of heavy medication *nodnod*
Now, this pattern is NOT MINE!!! It belongs to Pepika.com where i found this adorable thing ^-^
….granted, i very rarely can seem to get it exactly like the instructions, so i ‘add lib’ as i go XD sometimes they look pretty nice, as i believe this one does, and sometimes…eh…not so nice *cough* now, i do know it is hard for you to understand that i could be so minutely incapable of perfection, but do not worry, that aforementioned therapy will allow you to come to grips with it, yesyes *nods like a thoughtful bearded rabbit*
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subtopic numero uno
--again, stop thinking this is pizza for playing, that would be messy and ruin the tastey wonders of the pizza--
following along with the prior crochet talkings, i have another current piece for, in fact, the exact same hooman being :U subdue your amazement for me to continue...
as hard as it may be for you minions to believe, this is the first headband i have made in years, therefore the reason it looks so much bigger band-wise, seeing as my stitches have become much tighter since that once up on a time the band does not stretch nearly as much and so had to be larger to fit properly *nod*
she is particularly fond of cats, an immense love that borders on creepy and off putting at times... but she is my dear friendlekin and obviously must be off her rocker in order to be able to withstand my sparkling insanity o 3o
this is why i tried to do a cat-like image for the decorative feature of the head piece, i am not that fond of how it turned out --calm your panic attack-- however she seems to adore it and whence she slips it on her brain case it will surely imbue her with the magical power of my marvels *throws legos like confetti*
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el topico numero doce..o
--STOP THINKING OF PIZZA!! >:U --
several nights ago i was working on doing some more character concepts for two OC's of mine which had yet to be given a face, and as i made the small circles for where i wanted to put the eyes... i. could. not. stop. myself. from seeing this face ' o 3o '
thus, i added a temporary little pair of duck lips and took a pic in order to amuse my future self, something i am sure you unwitting followers take much enjoyment from, so i shall take a moment of silence for you to bask
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relatively sufficient now? excellent excellent.
now, of course, it is even more humorous due to the fact such a small, goober face is on a clearly masculine and not cartoony figure…at least, this would be my opinion to myself... *nods to nonexistent, yet still quite dapper, mushroom on my shoulder*
but i must regretfully inform you all that this once marginally decent bust turned into a mess of horrid ugliness that i cannot in all consciousness, and a little less consciousness, show any living being without suffering physical turmoil... -___ -
oh, hush hush my lovlies, no need to get your panties depicting me in a bunch, these things do happen with such sketchy pieces and i let it flutter past me as much as possible...yes, indeed, yes yes..yesssss T 3T
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that is all for the time being my dears, and so, i leave you with this glorious gif to soothe your woes and grow your mounting destabilization of common sense and sanity :D
ENJOY.
i know, i know.
you've all been suffering from severe withdrawal due to my lack of existence
well, i assure you, it is not because i hate you, no, i hate you for different reasons ha, kidding o Do..no seriously, i am o-o
i am just me, which as my brainwashed minions you would all know, and/or, not even notice either way as you are too lost in thought of my greatness, or pineapples..or..ketchup..
i do, however, sincerely apologize for my tendency to vanish off the face of the interwebs...i do not mean to hurt you, and i hope your shrines continue to have my face o 3o
ANYWAYS, i came on to say a little random nothingness, just to say hey, i still exist, i am working on things..kind of..and yeah...hi there mah minionizzles.....i should really stop trying to do that o-o
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behold the not so epic tale of a not so fascinating moment of my failness
*ahem*
as per my usual self, i am quite fond of keeping my laptop files organized and neat, with complex systems of folders within folders within folders, etc.
so every now and again i go into my file tree and do some cleaning, as i am near constantly adding new images, plus there is the occasional double--or triple--which needs to be removed and/or measured up to the other(s) to see which is best; and then at times i must do some hunting to find the artist of images i have obtained--primary from tumblr--which did not have a source, however, despite the fact i dont just post these images and tend to use them personally, i still prefer to have the name so that i can properly title the work in my folder and for that 'just incase' i should ever use it i shall have the correct person to credit *nod*
well, i decided to do this tonight, for i had added several lovely sebciel pics and knew i recognized some but wasnt entirely sure enough if i had them or not...and thus began my tangent off into file workings... this can also lead to more additions due to jumping down one rabbit hole than another, though i do make my way back, but with more images for arranging XP
i have just now finished doing another round of this organization, mostly my images files, mostly 4 main folders in particular--i say main because the 'main' folders have folders within folders within folders...so there were many folders worked in, but overall most of what i did was in the four 'main' ones rather than a complete item overhaul--
all this took me 7 hours...SEVEN HOURS...
...there are times when this OCD and perfectionism thing i have going on can truly warp reality for me...actually...that happens a lot..a lot........but..anyways...
after all this time, the only bit of anything left in my mind is that i am so hungry voraciously right now...
i was going to eat the shake i had in the freezer whilst watching some of my youtube vids, however it is now 7:30 am and there is no time left for ice cream -____-
EDIT: it is now 11:50 am...i cant sleep, and even if i could i would only get about three and a half hours (from when i first intended, which was 10:15, now it is just a little more than two hours) as i have to shower and do all that post showering things that i do, since i apparently have a doctor's appointment at 6 pm and i am currently several days unshowered, and you can only go so long before it is blatantly obvious how disgusting you are......LE SIGH *flails wantonly in a puddle*
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i felt i had to share this with my world of nobody because it was an immense weirdness, one of those peculiarities which cannot go unspoken
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yup.
...this is my brain now...
greetings minions.
what you up to?
i am not up to much, never am, le sigh...
oh my dear dear misguided hooman zombies, your all encompassing leader of humble narcissism is in the depths of the depths of despair...tis such a woeful state, sucking up everything and everyone, because being a whirlpool of entropy is makes perfect sense that random bystanders would be helpless to the maelstrom of myself since they are all obviously standing obnoxiously close to me o-o
i am trying, even though i truly do not want to and yet do...
drawings and writings are buzzing around my head, yearning to live..LIVE...i am the doctor frankenstein of artistic inspiration, the adam of my labors is a great creature in my brainses *flails pitifully*
the holidays have passed and your master did not wish anything upon you nor express any sort of things with regard to my own times and presents and suchness...because i am a lazy mistress of procrastination...
SO, have this belated piece of merry humorousness to ease your sorrows o 3o
this adorable piece was by Dale Anderson
