Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
if you'd like, my darlings, check me out at one of my other existences:
[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
..no, shhhhhh shhhhhhh....i didn't mean that *pets intensely* you know i love you darlings, you know it......*whispers*you know... > 3<
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Anyways! I decided to pop up to announce that i have been contemplating changing my avatar!! :O Yes, i realize that is a tiny, random, not really worthy of mentioning change, however i wanted to say something about something. It also shows my existence and i have been trying to be better with assuring all of ye that i am, in fact, alive.
I suppose i also felt this could be worthy of a post because i so very veryVERY rarely change my avatar here, or anywhere really. When i find something i like i tend to stick with it for a good long while. That actually applies to nearly every aspect of my life. o-o For example, I own several articles of clothing, wear only a few constantly, and some of them have holes in them--the two pairs of shoes i wear regularly both have holes and are falling apart--but i still keep and wear them all because i heart them and they are technically in tact. Plus some aren't things i actually wear outside...often...
Okay enough of my sloppiness.
*ahem* Ever since theOtaku had its huge overhaul and got rid of myOtaku, i have had a total of TWO avatars. Yup, two. And now i felt like it was time to change, not sure why, but i just did and so i am going with the flow of my feels. One should always flow with the feels. Unless it is about things that could get you arrested, then you probably shouldn't. First you need to make sure you won't get caught, THEN go with it.
For a long while i maintained this site as one where i show my love through imagery for my second OTP, sebciel--sebastian and ciel from the anime kuroshitsuji--which you no doubt noticed considering the theme of this little world of mine. They have also been what my two avatars featured since the myOtaku change. HOWEVER, i am considering having a sesskag avatar. I will likely be altering my age-long maintaining of avatars and instead trying to have new ones a little more often, so i will likely switch between the two, or maybe even have some OTHERS. GASP! OH MY! WHAT IS THIS BLASPHEMY?! I know, i know, it is a daring and unexpected announcement from your beloved leader, but never fret, i have not been possessed nor infected with parasites that alter my very nature. I was sure to lock the cage more securely this time.
Since my decision I have been working on a few sesskag avatars that had been lingering sadly in my files, unloved and yearning to be used, and i feel like since i have done so, one of them deserves to be shown. Some i have actually done a lot of work on. Why do some people make the weirdest color changes on things? I mean, Sesshoumaru isn't orange, why is he orange? *eyeroll* No idea... Currently i am debating between several, some i have done stuff too, and some i haven't touched and just simply have. ... GAH! What shall i do, sweetlings? WHAT SHALL I DO!? IT IS SO HARD TO PICK!!!!!!
There are nine that i am contemplating, which i CAN cut down to four i think...but of those four, three have at least two versions to choose from--cause they were ones i messed around with--...so it seems as though there are even MORE choices to be made....
UUUGGGGHHHSSSSSS WHY SO HARD?!
and being a llama just makes it harder!!
hey peeps, how are you doing?
good? what?
how have you been good? i haven't posted for a while and without my words to sooth your insanity you must surely be falling apart...right? RIGHT?! mmhmm, thought so. T 3T
anyways, i am updating you on pretty much nothing and for no other reason than to reassure all you dear little minions that i am alive...at least according to biological standards
so, whilst i try to finish things, have this, because i find it humorous and therefore you should also:
So my little minions, guess what....come on, guess >:3
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No, that's entirely wrong. I already filled my murder quota for this week..i mean, cough, ..eh, whatever.
In fact, I am preparing to get everything here and updated!
ISN'T IT SOME SORT OF INSANITY?!
ISN'T IT!?
ME! DOING THINGS!
RIGHT?!
Okay, that's enough thinking poorly of your master.
...Seriously. Stop it. *smacks your hands away from my face*
*ahem* Anyways, i did some prep work in my own overly OCD manner, and i arranged all the pieces that need to be put up. *nod*
And, my dear lovelies, there are approximately seventy doodles and drawings.
Yes. I'm not kidding. Seventy, SEVEN ZERO.
However, for you peeps on this site of ours, there will be about fourteen pieces that shan't be put up. Now these aren't going to be, because i will be having them stashed in my scraps on deviantART and therefore in a hidden realm of shame that only those with forethought to watch my scraps will see. But if you do REALLY want to see those old ugly things, if you go to my deviantART gallery and press the Browse or Scrapbook links at the topish line, you will be able to. itsufer.deviantart.com Do not have any expectations, let alone high ones.
Another thing to note in this general realm, there are a few more of the drawings which have adult content, primarily nudity, some sexual, which i won't be posting here either. If i truly adore a nudity piece then i may censor it for; but, for the most part, your perverse minds shan't be given the unmarked luxury on this site. Should you have a deviantART account, going to my gallery you would then be able to find them, but you must have that account to do so, seeing as i shall place them under the banners of mature content. *sigh* Yes, i know that i too am an ironic lamb of perversion, however i do not wish to incur the wraths of mods and subsequently be banished.
Back to the postables, do keep in mind that the majority of these are old, out of date, not my current style sort of things. I will say when the newest stuff appears though, never fear darlings. *overly affectionate, bordering creepy head patting*
Also, i can't say for sure how long it will take to reach that place of complete updatery considering the whole...seventy drawings issue. - _ -
There are a few pieces that still need to be scanned and i intend to do that either tonight or the next one oooooorrr.. the next one. Oh you know me, minions, procrastinatey and all. *mischievous snickers*
Whelps, that's all then i suppose. I shall go back to preparing for the obvious apocalypse which is surely to be coming after this absurd change in world dynamics that is me.
WHY YOU PEOPLE NO CARE ABOUT MY GAIA ARTS!? D:< I am pretty happy with some of these and they are updated style and everything!! Not only are these more updated styles but they also have partial color, which took me forever since i used the tract pad, my finger, and paint.net...ADORE, AND HEART THEM! >:U
Seee the thumbnail and GO VIEW! Yeah i am self advertising, not like me but who cares! They deserve more love! D:<
So yeah and stuff and things...i am hungry. That is all.
i finally get around to doing what i need to and i get rammed in the face with a brick wall of more problems.
a freakin, thick wall of stone crushing my skull...it's like...you finally make it across one road of a highway only to get hit by a speeding truck at the threshhold of the next T_T
i have always known life likes to screw me over as a hobby, but it's horribly upsetting to a messed up person such as myself to make progress at being better, or trying to be better really--which is very difficult for me, you have no idea--, and not only not get any results above baseline--which would have been fantastic-- but to have them tank into the vacuum currently making it's job to suck up everything i am working towards...
sigh...
i know it's not a huge deal really.....and i won't and don't honestly take it as such...i'm mostly just ranting in frustration of the moment...
sighsighsigh...
and the worst part of all............................................THEREISNOFOODINTHISHOUSE...IAMSOHUNGRYRIGHTNOW DX
like that kind of hungry were your stomach hurts and you can feel it up in your throat, begging for sustinence.....
i will be forced to resort to cannibalism soon it seems..and in that case i must then part take of my sibling, for i'm sure she is very nutritious...
life...you may have cut off my limbs but i shall come back...and bite your damn legs off...cause that's how we black knights roll T 3T
