Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
if you'd like, my darlings, check me out at one of my other existences:
[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
...thought, since it had been a while i posted anything, i decided to give you a quick generalization of what i have been doing lately.......................... .
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i have no life. i need a life.
y can i no has life? T_T
at least my house has food again.....ahhss, le sigh! *sluggish flailings around of bonelessness*
have this shiny shiny vid to ease your pain knowing of my cold, mustachioed shell, which of course causes you terrible terrible terrible inner traumas of woeful despair...but this..this shall begin your slow healing process:
Soooooooooooooooooooooooo...the other night, in one part of the many dreams i had, there was a moment when i dreamt that i got onto this account and over half of my subscribers had left me! D: now i am not the egotistical type, in fact i am rather self depricating, but still! what on earth could have happened that so many peoples would leave me at the same time!! D:
twas a strangeness indeed, one i didn't actually recall until after i was going through my sites and came on here and seeing i had the same subscriber amount it reminded me of teh dreamy thing.
other things and stuff have been buzzing around my life, my sister recently graduated from high school...it merely reminds me of how it is over two years(getting closer to three) since i graduated and still i have not managed to get my footing into normal life. -___-
but good things are about, i have managed to weave myself into my writing again, which pleases me...i have gotten maybe half of my written notes from the laptop chaos into documents either new or already existing. *nodnod* and with this i have written a bit for a few of my fanfic stories. i re-read the few pieces i had written for an old SebCiel story i had in mind, i actually kind of liked it regardless of the editing necessary. i initially decided that i would never continue what i had in mind for it, but upon reading it again..i think i may try to figure something out with it. granted, since i had just started writing and did not take down notes on the story line, i don't remember it so much..kinda like a spotty memory of some life experience, images and flashes but nothing definitive. don't know when i would get to that though! XD i did write some on another two SessKag fanfics of mine, nothing big, but a little since the inspiration was there from the note inputs.
i really have got to hook up my scanner...i have so many arts that need to be scanned in, lest i drown in the growing numbers DX ..stupid self.....T 3T
whelps...just thought i would update whoever..or whatever seems to keep coming here...(i have gotten not quite 300 views since my last post or two o-o...what is up with that?)
i have actually not been able to do much of anything on the internet or my laptop for several weeks now, and with these issues i had always believed i couldn't post here--pretty much anywhere else really T 3T--because of the wayward nature of links and what will or won't load, etc...some things work other don't..it's a mess of ire inducing uncertainties and i wish i knew why the hell it was happening...but it looks like tomorrow i will be finally taking it in! :D EDIT: Well, i took it in to the geek squad, he looked through things, changed one thing or two and put on something meant to help analyze my computer content, not the hardware, to be clear. Aaaaaaaand after doing that and deleting a few unnecessary and possibly hindering things, then running the analyzer and it found nothing. Not a freakin, damn thing. There is one item i have not been able to delete and i think may be causing at least some of the issues and that is McAfee. I don't know if it is corrupted or the actual macfee site or whatever is screwed up or what, but it won't load or uninstall because it freezes the program. Just another stupid problem that has come to join the haunting of the technological existence of me. Sigh..sigh. I personally still maintain the theory that my harddrive is the issue, somehow, someway..yes. It needs to be taken in again where perhaps they can remove the unresponsive McAfee, see if that does ANYTHING to assist, and if not i want them to check out the hardware...cause this is pissing me off more. I already missed the jack hunting zOMG event on gaia and it looks like i will miss the opening of the new area, DMS, also in zOMG, plus i have missed SO MANY DAYS of gold earning possibilities!!! I NEED TO REGAIN GOLD FROM PURCHASED CURRENT DREAM AVIE ITEMS D:< Yes, i enjoy this virtual world. If you have a life then go be apart of it, cause i don't and this is what sustains my restless pointlessness of not having one. Yeah, i don't have a life and never have. Really makes the reason i get the amount of view i do here seem rather strange. All i do is ramble about crap, and if not that then it is general updates of things i finally get around to posting here. ...i am going to shut up now, just wanted to update, you people weird enough to come here. Probably only lost souls catching a tag thinking it will lead to something of meaning when in fact it is asinine babble. *pop* ..yup.
Living without internet or my computer abilities at all(since i backed up my things, i couldn't go saving or starting new documents to in my folders) sooo..quite sadness indeed. i have been necessarily forced into get my large reading pile out of the way, though. Not that i dislike reading--i quite enjoy it--, i just take forever to around to it--or anything--, but when i do i get through things fast. Two books complete, some writing, and some art...knocking down a few of those pillars which needed and still need to be brutally attacked. However i must say going back to long hand writing, for extended periods of time, is painful XP it has been close to three years since i have done such...i am a bit better now but still *cracks wrists and fingers*
i really don't think this going is to go through, but if it does, then this all is why i haven't been posting or faving or thumbs uping, though i have been able to view things, so points still to people there *nod* and you had best enjoy those points people....you.had.best. T 3T
i wrote a much longer and more explanitory post on this for my deviantART, which then, of course, didn't go through. But i had spent so much time on it that i did the annoying process of transfering it a word doc, saving it, moving it to a flashdrive, going to the desktop downstairs, logging in there, and getting it all set and posting through that. ...as you may have noticed, using the desktop i prefer not--if you haven't, then watch this mysterious red light that is moving swiftly on the wall *moves around laser pointer*--. It is rather dark in that room due burnt out bulbs--forever out it seems-- and while i like darkness, it isn't good for the eyes. Especially since our desktop is a fairly big screen, as it is a media type computer...so bright, large screen you sit close to in a relatively darkened room for hours on end...yeah... Though due to all this laptop chaos, i do occasionally pop on there to check certain things on certain sites, but only briefly.
soooooooooooo, if this doesn't go through, then....you'll all live. probably.
EDIT:hey! it actually went through...who would have thought..sigh...the strangeness of this issue is frustrating indeed. >:/
i finally get around to doing what i need to and i get rammed in the face with a brick wall of more problems.
a freakin, thick wall of stone crushing my skull...it's like...you finally make it across one road of a highway only to get hit by a speeding truck at the threshhold of the next T_T
i have always known life likes to screw me over as a hobby, but it's horribly upsetting to a messed up person such as myself to make progress at being better, or trying to be better really--which is very difficult for me, you have no idea--, and not only not get any results above baseline--which would have been fantastic-- but to have them tank into the vacuum currently making it's job to suck up everything i am working towards...
sigh...
i know it's not a huge deal really.....and i won't and don't honestly take it as such...i'm mostly just ranting in frustration of the moment...
sighsighsigh...
and the worst part of all............................................THEREISNOFOODINTHISHOUSE...IAMSOHUNGRYRIGHTNOW DX
like that kind of hungry were your stomach hurts and you can feel it up in your throat, begging for sustinence.....
i will be forced to resort to cannibalism soon it seems..and in that case i must then part take of my sibling, for i'm sure she is very nutritious...
life...you may have cut off my limbs but i shall come back...and bite your damn legs off...cause that's how we black knights roll T 3T
