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Update Much?

Ohayou Gozaimasu...

It's been quite a while since I have updated here, I've been really busy with school lately.

Now, I know just about no one reads this, but I do it anyway.

So...I had dated Tyler's bestie, Riley, and well, that went to shit, because I felt terrible for it. Tyler and myself are now engaged...again. This time, things have really changed. He no longer ditches me for his idiot Alec, rather...he tells Alec off. Alec recently moved, though, so we are both feeling the relief of it. A problem has risen for me, though, with one of my old friends.

I have known this girl for almost five years now, and we have been friends for the same amount of time. Not once have we separated over something as petty as the fact that she doesn't like my fiance and I don't like her crush. But she's always had this fetish of degrading my fiance to my face. Talking shit, in other words. I have never taken the time to be so petty as to walk up to her and say, "I hate (name of her crush) so much. His face makes me sick. He's such a jerk, I don't see what you like about him. Ew." and I never stopped to call him "the plague". She, however, does it all the time when it comes to my fiance, and I decided to confront her about it by telling her it just didn't seem fair. She told me she would try to be nice from then on.

As soon as Tyler came home, she began to ignore me. A lot. I checked my facebook one day, and she had commented on one of my many photo albums. Now, I'm told that I am very photogenic, and good at taking photos in general. I don't mean just of me, but of others and of nature and whatnot. So I have a lot of pictures. It's completely normal, and most of my friends and family promote it. Her comment was as follows: "My god get a life."

Let me elaborate on something...She herself has absolutely no life whatsoever. She worries all the time about what is going on in everyone else's lives, instead of worrying about her own. She doesn't stop to try and excel in her classes like her teacher's want her to because they know she can. She has constant petty emotional breakdowns about stupid things.

Through all of these, every single one, including the one's dealing with her crush, I have always been there for her. Never asking anything of her in return. So that comment of her's irritated me. Highly. When I get this irritated, I tend to say very...mean and flaming things. The arguement is as follows:
me:Asia, let me say this for you.
You worry so much about the people's lives around you rather than your own that I think it is YOU who needs to get a life. You're a little prissy bitch, and you don't even have the courage to tell the one you'v...e liked since GOD knows when that you like him. You bitch and complain about it all the time, you whine about stupid shit like a teacher wanting you to excel in your life. You need to get over yourself. If you want to be a bitch, feel free. But don't sit here and comment on MY stuff just to piss me off. Get your own life, and if you so much as try to comment or message about this, or even SPEAK to me, I swear to god you will wish you never fucking knew me.

Asia:Let me tell u something,
at least i know when to quit. And i dont go back to some one who almost everybody on the planet knows will hurt me, then cry about it. Im sorry that my teachers want me to excel in life, which by the way sweetheart is more than i can say for u. Oh! and im EXTREMELY sorry that i care enough about you to be concern about what is happening. Plus, if u hadn't noticed, i do have a life which doesnt include a guy that will eventually hurt me, AGAIN. And by the way im not afraid to tell Lyon i like him, i dont because it would hurt both me and him. that part about me complaining all the time is funny 'cause for the last THREE YEARS i've listen to YOU bitch and complain and bitch some more. Im through with you and you can take that egotistic attitude and shove it where the sun dont shine. At least I have people who will stick by me no matter what which in case you havent heard you had little to none.

Oh, by the way. i just commented on your message.
Dont worry this is the LAST time i talk to you, EVER. If you have something to say about it talk to my face, not behind my back like the cockroach you are.

So, there you have it. Suddenly, over something as petty as the fact that I enjoy taking pictures and I am happy with my fiance caused her to say things to me, which got me upset enough to say something back, and ended our relationship.

Calling me a cockroach and a bitch...both are complements to me. You see, cockroaches are the only thing that could survive something as terrible as nearly ending the world, and well...a bitch is a female dog, dogs bark, bark is on trees, trees are a part of nature, and nature is beautiful.

I have more friends than she can count, so she doesn't know what she's talking about...she doesn't know when to stop, and my teachers DO want me to excel in life, which I've been doing my best with. Her comment about Lyon, her crush, is bull, because he has said multiple times just how much he loathes her entirely, and wishes she would leave him alone. The girl stalks him for Pete's sake. And I worry about that.

I worry for her quite a lot, because she doesn't realize that what she says is all something that she gets from her state of mind. She's never happy, and that worries me. I wonder if she has depression, and that thought frightens me, because if she does and nobody knows, she might end up killing herself, and as angry as I am that she is still acting like a child over me being with my fiance who doesn't hurt me and keeps me happy...I don't want her to go and do something stupid. I do still care. How could I not? We were friends for so long, it's hard to just let that go. If she would have just dropped the situation and been fair about things, this would never have happened. If she hadn't been rude to me over something as small as a photo album, we wouldn't have fought like this. I never wanted to lose her as the friend she was to me. But she managed to make it happen, and now I hear that she is upset about it. She cried, in our third hour. I saw her, I knew she was crying, and I found out it was because she can't believe I'm letting such a stupid thing come between us. My friend, Joe, told her, "I'm sorry but...you brought it upon yourself, Asia. You started the whole thing off by being...well...a bitch to her." Joe speaks her mind, and I appreciate her for that, but she is completely right to tell Asia such a thing. Asia brought it on herself to lose me the way she has.

I don't know whether or not I should talk to her about it. I refuse to apologize for something I didn't start.

Another issue comes in with the fact that someone I was rebuilding a friendship with is now shunning me for being with Tyler. Devan, a guy I became friends with in ninth grade and lost the summer before I was a sophomore, gave me a nasty look and shook his head at us today. A lot of people are giving us problems because we are back together again, and a lot closer than we used to be.

I don't know if I should think of it as jealousy or just plain pettiness. And I don't know why people can't just be happy for us because we're happy together. It's a shame, and it hurts. We've begun to appreciate having each other even more than ever because people keep pushing us away all over us being together. We feel as though we only have each other now. It's something we just can't lose.

On a lighter note, I've been doing better in school, and Tyler and myself are doing wonderfully together. My trip to Australia this summer is canceled, but it gives me time to get a summer job.

I want to also thank my otaku friends who wished me a happy birthday. :3 it made me smile.

I'm going to leave my post at this, I suppose, and smile and say...please welcome the black haired Audi. ^_^ Yes, I dyed my hair black. :3 I love it.

~Audi

School!!! Escuela!!! YAAAA!!!

Okay!
So, school has started for me again. :3 So far, I'm really loving my Junior year classes. And I have a free period first hour on my A-days. :D Hence how I'm updating this. Heh heh.

So I have Spanish 1 this year. And I'm learning spanish. But it seems like my favorite thing to say/ask is, "Donde esta el bano?" ("Where is the bathroom?") XD

I wear completely emo clothing this year, and I do my hair straightened in my face. Kinda like...scemo sk8er. Scemo, if you're wondering, is scene-emo. I do my makeup dark, you know...black eyeliner and stuff. And I paint my nails black. All I need now is to dye my hair black. XD My parents, shockingly, are allowing me to dress and look this way. They honestly no longer care just as long as I'm not doing the wrong things, such as:
-Cutting
-Giving bad attitude
-Doing poorly in school
-Being sexually active at a young age
-Dating Tyler XD
So basically, I'm fine to do what I want as long as I keep up on things. Not only that, but I have my iPod Touch back, and my cellphone as well. I have to turn them in before I go to bed, and I don't get them back till homework is done, but it's still worth it. And I have free weekends. I can do what I want when I want as long as homework and chores are done. I'm quite the happy camper.

I've been drawing lately, and noticing how much my art has improved over the years. Especially since I lived in Florida. I might post some art today, but it won't look as great as it would if I scanned it. The pictures were drawn and then I caught a camera picture of the drawing on my phone. I then uploaded the images onto the school computer I am using, and that's how I'm going to upload it. Or. Them. Haha.

Oh, over the summer, I spent two weeks out in Florida, visiting my dad, little brother, and my father's new wife. I went to SeaWorld for the first time, and Busch Gardens. That one was a first as well. We had a BLAST. It was amazing. Sadly, I can't handle rides the way I used to be able to. I get sick very easily now on roller-coasters and spinning rides. It frustrates me, because that makes it difficult to enjoy myself on trips that I go on for fun. It truly truly sucks. But anyway, we also went to the beach. Ahh the beach. I haven't been to one in so long that the sun scorched my skin rather badly, and the salt water made my legs burn as though there were jellyfish stinging from all directions. Mind you, there were NO jellyfish where we were. Still, it was fun, even if I had trouble sleeping with a cooked back. XD

I taught my little brother a few things about how to draw like I do, and I was very happy to see that he is a fast learner and good listener when it comes to things that interest him. He is on his way to becoming a great artist. I'm very proud of him.

Now for things out here...

Since I'm in school, there is drama. And where there is drama, there is stress. I can't stand it. Already. We are four days into the school year, and there is already a heap of drama starting. "So-and-so cheated on such-and-such!" "I hate so-and-so, you should help me kick their ass." Yeah, uh, No. Not going there. I'm really tired of all the drama bullshit. It's stupid. So someone cheated on someone else. What do I have to do with it? Nothing. So leave me out of it, right? But they seem to think that they need to tell me!!! So it irritates me.

Curious thing, how drama starts so horribly once you hit high school. BOOM! There it is.

Well, I suppose I will wrap this up now. I have a dance to prepare for tonight. Yay. Hasta luego!!!

~A.

Another update

Im an idiot.

Ok i am posting this post from my ipod, so im sorry for any puncuation, grammar, or spelling errors. Um. So!

I have been online a lot since i got back my ipod. Heh. And well...i have made zillions of new friends. One of which is tuler's new gf. She is korean, and really nice! We are very close friends already. :) and me and ty are talking civil now. Yeah, i told you im an idiot. Haha.

So i dont have a huge crush on cole anymore. No, now it is ozzy. Thats short for ozland, so no, im not talking about ozzy osbourne. Ha. Oh, and i have a wife now. Yes. Im married. To a girl. Remember my ex girlfriend? The one i posted a pic of waaaay back? Yep, we are in love still, and married at current.

I have a lot of emo stuff. And i am cutting again, but its ok. I dont mind doing it now, and everyone knows i do it, so i am fine with it.

I got mad at some idiotic bitches today. They were acting like they are the queens of style and stereotype. Im sorry, but emo IS a style of clothing, and looks, just as much as it is a stereotype and/or true emotional problem. It just is. Styles and stereotypes have always been like that.

Well im on here often now, and i will try to post pix sometime...i am getting so much better at my art. :3

Loves and bye for now.

Emogrl4life

~闇姫

Just an updated picture...

Here's another updated picture of my new haircut. I look a little Asian here...I took this today after I had straightened my hair, before I went out for a swim.

Yippee!

So it is summer for me.
I have such a huge crush on someone right now, and I'm sad, because I haven't seen him in a while. Luckily for me, he accepted my friend request on facebook. YIPPEEEEEE!!! *dances giddily*

So I found out Tyler has another girlfriend...ALREADY!!! ha! And he says she means a lot to him. PAH!!!! I will laugh when it falls through the way it will. It's just too fast for him to suddenly be in love with some girl he barely knows. Pff.

Well, I had a dream with my crush in it. It was amazingly freaking awesome. I can't stop thinking about it. No joke. I get giddy every time the image replays in my head.

Speaking of my head. I got my hair cut. Uber short. I'll put a pic of it at the end of the post. I think I look really cute right now with my super short hair. I feel good about myself for once. Maybe it's cause of my new look AND having Cole-sama involved in my life...? Cole-sama=my crush, by the way.

So I've been writing a lot again and drawing a lot. Hehe. I would post some art, but I kind of can't right now.

OH! And I only failed one class this year, and since it was an elective, that means no summer school and no repeat of the class. WOOT WOOT. Hopefully mother and father feel somewhat the same as I do about that.

I'm at a friend's house, and I've been working on a story that she inspired me to write...I haven't slept at all. He. He. He. I can't help it. I have so much to do, and so little time to do it. Ooh, that sounded wrong, haha.

Well, anyway, I just wanted to update here. ^_^ Loves!!
~KHAOS

P.S. Yes, I'm wearing a tiara...shut up, haha. I was hyper. And saw the tiara...and decided to be a princess for a little bit.