Her Words

WARNING: Mature content dealing with relationship infidelity and insecurity along with depressed thoughts.

It was long ago,
When the love was there,
Now four years have passed,
And it's barely a glimmer.

Day after day,
I see his eyes glow,
Many fleeting emotions,
Shine deep in his soul.

He stares blankly at me,
Doesn't know what to say...
How could he? We're dull-
Doomed to wither away.

I look down at my hands,
But my eyes no longer see,
What lies before me, no...
I see only what must be.

My whole body shakes.
I know I must stand.
My knees wobble,
My mouth tastes bland...

I look him in the eye,
I know what's at stake.
My mouth forms the words...
"My life, you must take."

....To be Continued.

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This poem just came to me, inspired by many things I read about relationships gone wrong and the woman feeling she can no longer live...I feel it's wrong but it is a depressing issue.

Gone, Forevermore...

Sore limbs,
Breaking bone,
Lights go dim,
He's coming home.

Throbbing feet,
Cracking joints,
Knees go weak,
He looks and points.

Beating heart,
Rapid pulse,
Turning with a start,
She grins on impulse.

Blinking twice,
Matching eyes,
Wraps like a vice,
Truth become lies.

Joy turns to sorrow,
Smiles to a frown,
Realizing her 'morrow,
Just turned upside down.

'Tis not the man,
In which she knew,
He doesn't give a damn,
How much she grew.

Nor how she loved,
How she waited,
He merely shoved,
And vacated.

Now she stands,
Alone and in pain,
Crumpled, she lands,
Her love now slain.

The man she loved,
Died in war,
Her once beloved,
Gone, forevermore.

Ticking Time Bomb

A ticking time bomb.
An explosive sound.
My world destroyed.
Debris and decay all around.

What was the cause?
Why did he come?
To invade and conquer?
To make my insides numb?

Eyes appear through smoke.
Glinting cold and grey.
Squinting down at me.
Demanding I go away.

My heart is to blame.
Betrayal is obvious.
The world can see my love.
These lips are the accomplice.

Forbidden is the cause.
He came to silence me.
Never should I have felt it.
This war inside, make it flee!

You won the war.
You made me leave.
I still care.
But no more will I deceive.

Wires and clocks.
Sensitive, fragile.
Cut these wires.
But be careful.

Cut the wrong ones.
Your fate is set.
With me, you'll be.
Repay your debt.

For I'm a ticking time bomb.
You made me this way.
For loving me.
For telling me you'll stay.

My Attempt at a Song

Forever

Your lips touch mine,
Your hands hold me close,
Your kiss feels so divine,
When you're nearby,
My heart is lost, my soul is yours~

[Chorus]

It's when you show your love,
When you prove you care,
You tell me everyday:
"You're everything to me,
Baby, I wanna be with you,
Forever."

[[Chorus End]]

Your mouth whispers sweetly,
Your fingers dance across my skin,
Your tongue holds secrets,
I yearn to discover,
Your heart is mine, your soul is free~

[Chorus]

It's when you show your love,
When you prove you care,
You tell me everyday:
"You're everything to me,
Baby, I wanna be with you,
Forever."

[[Chorus End]]

We opened each other,
We set ourselves free,
We showed the other,
"You can trust me"
"I can trust you"
We can love one another...

[Chorus]

It's when you show your love,
When you prove you care,
You tell me everyday:
"You're everything to me,
Baby, I wanna be with you,
Forever."

[[Chorus End]]

We'll be there for each other;
Forever, you'll see~

Yesterday...

Part 2:Re-living the Past

Yesterday, I fell...
into your trap,
forever.

Yesterday, you said...
I love you now;
whatever.

Yesterday, I said...
I love you too;
now, never.

***

Yesterday, She told me...
Why do you play,
into his game?

Yesterday, I told her...
I don't know why;
it causes me pain.

***

Before, I was blind.
Now, I am not.
Now, I can fight,
And see what I've sought.
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This poem was trying to get the basics of what happened down in rhyming form, along with my thoughts on the matters. When he told me he loved me, I think back and say to myself, "whatever". I told him I loved him, now I think, not now, not ever. My friend asked me ( irritated ), why do you play into his games? Why do you fall into his traps? and the only answer I had for her was...I don't know >.< We both agreed it caused me pain. I was blind before, not seeing what he was doing, or what he's done. but now, i can fight back. see my goal again (to forget and move on)

Please let me know if these stink. This one, I'm not so sure of it's quality. I would appreciate it if you let me know what you think, and what you think could have been better. Thank you