Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
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[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
the christmas eve and day have now passed, and i hope you all had a lovely time of it, doing things and stuff and thinking of me because that is the way obviously; if you don't celebrate christmas, but some other holiday, or perhaps none at all, then i hope it was an enjoyable holiday/few weeks for you also ^-^
i have nothing really to say again, because i hath been too busy to do much honestly, but i felt i should say SOMETHING since holiday stuff.....and sooooooo...have another video from the same guy because i like his stuff plus i rewatched it recently, so therefore it is latched in the brain of me...it is also vaguely christmasy..in that the set is christmas themed....yeah, that's it o-o
Something for your eye gouging pleasure...a long and annoying update on my life and what is going to happen in the near and distant future *nod*
SIGH, well took me a while to get around to writing this(and then to get it up here XP)…been very busy, or at least for me it is…I mean I have moved more than I would in two months in the last three weeks! It’s been very hard on me I think T –T i mean yesterday i slept through the entire day from 4 am to 5 am the next day! i slept through two very annoying alarms! it was my body taking matters into it's own hands i think T 3T sometimes it does that...my body and mind are definately two entities...
Anyways, the simple of it is, I have been trying to come back to life lately. I sort of imagine myself as having been dead my entire life and now I have started digging my way to the surface, to live among the humans, masquerading as one in order to have a “normal” existence.
I really took my dog’s death as a (I apologize how cliché this may sound to some people) sign from God. It was something I always knew would happen and anticipated in the last few weeks of her life, but I suppose the suddenness of it all and then learning it was the same cancer that had taken my grandma when she was still so young (only just turned 69!)…it was a wake-up call that I knew I needed but had never truly felt. That life is unexpected, no matter how fully I live by ‘expect the unexpected’, I can’t avoid that things happen whether you want them or not, and even if you were knowing that it was on its way the full force of it knocks some of your brain loose again. I loved my dog greatly, and I adored my grandmother. Even though I have always had problems, and I know I always will, and while I can empathize with wished to simply end it all, there is this small biting fire inside me that wants to live. I want to go to college, I want to find something I love to do, I want to find my someone, I want to have children and make my parents grandparents—they would be great ones too!—, I want pets of my own, a home of my own, I want to grow old hand in hand with my love, and I want to live a long life with purpose, then slip soundly into heaven, and meet everyone I loved and lost and the reason for my being ‘face’ to ‘face’. I have hopes in life, and I never once believed I couldn’t one day have those. Having this loss really reminded me, as much as I can take my time to be ready, I also need to keep myself moving, or else all these experiences will fall into the abyss I can’t seem to climb out of.
All this kicking got me to know I need to be thinking about college, sure it won’t be where I’m going tomorrow or this school year but it should be soon and I am going to need to work hard to be ready. I have things I need to accomplish before I can do that, and I want to be able to get to that first day…with a dorm and strange roommate and everything—eventhough I’m sure I won’t be too fond of having a roommate -___- —and know that I made it and be proud of myself for once. With this going on now, I don’t know how much I will be able to be around…and it truly saddens me, but until I can find my footing in this new life of mine, I just can’t be wasting and procrastinating (as I am quite skilled in). I will always try to make time for my friends and I will always be lurking every now and then even if I don’t make myself present :’)
Onto some fun stuff! I think I finally tacked down a major after all the depressing uncertainty I had when wishing for a career in Vet Tech areas, I will still try and study some Pre-Vet though even if I don’t major because I love it still and who knows what will come along in life ^_^ I have chosen something I always knew I liked and thought about but simply wasn’t sure of, and that is Majoring in Psychology. Seems appropriate, right? It’s kind of been my whole life really XP Then I would like to Minor in Writing. Not because I intend to have a writing career but I would love to one day publish some of my original fiction ideas and stories. It’s all writer’s dreams to have their own work in a nice, brand new book smelling, hard back novel. To do this, I need to know the ACTUAL rules of writing which I now do not really abide by so learning would be a great help regardless! As I said I will surely try and look into some pre-vet education but I won’t do anything career wise with it
I already have a college picked out too! One I loved from the first time I toured, and the other day I got back from an overnight tour thing which only made me seal the deal permanently! Especially my talk with a very kind and understand admissions counselor who helped me figure out what to do in order to be ready to apply ^-^ it’s wonderful to have a plan now and a real goal to be heading for *nodnod*
So hopefully, I will be a student of the class year 2013 along with my sister and second best friend! Sure, it will be the year that my graduating class will be starting their junior years but I wasn’t ready then plus it’s not like I’m advancing with them all and staying behind...it will be a new world full of new people and I will have my sibling and friend there with me too :3 so I’m not worried, I’m hopeful.
My life checklist currently:
-Finally get my 2nd semester of geometry finished
-Subsequently, getting my high school diploma (yes, I did graduate but I have this one semester I failed and while I can just not do it and get my GED, I am not letting a little bit of math keep me from a college prep diploma when I had more credits than necessary for the honors…I will not. T 3T)
-Get my driver’s ed. Permit
-Get my license
-Get a job(maaaaaaaaybe)
-Study and prepare for the SAT/ACT
-Take and kick the butts of SAT/ACT
-(if SAT/ACT required then will do after if not then during) take around 24 hours of community college to get a new GPA to rule out my horrid high school one and show the college I CAN work despite my issues before weighing me down
-Apply to college!
-GET IN! (would be AWESOME bonus to be eligible for an academic scholarship!..but that is unlikely T-T)
-Start my 6 year work towards my future!
So that is going to be my life until that school year of 2013! Pray for me those that pray and wish well those that don’t…it’s going to be a long road and I’m still just starting
All that aside, I have a few drawings that I scanned in a couple days ago that I shall start slipping in! none of it is anything big, all sketchy, and then gaia avie art for people..on gaia, obviously
So, I feel very wiped out today. Sore and tired and sunburnt:P I hope I don't add more to my charred epidermis collection tomorrow as we are doing more water park type things then... Sigh, I miss sleep a bit. Yes, yes I do.
Anyway! Must try to stay relatively not dead so that I may complete this post of what all I did today because i know how much all of your one-two people care marginally about it. ^-^
This morning, I got up. Yes, I did unfortunately. After all that which follows awaking, we headed out to some of the boat related things we were planning on for today. First we took a Duck tour. Basically you ride a Duck. No, not a bird. A boat. Called a Duck. So, simply it's a land to water vehicle. It was fun, and our guide was funny, evenhtough some of the jokes were those ones that usually no one would laugh at but the fact that it's said in such a sarcastic way makes it funnier...you know? Yeah, she told some of those and well...other stuff about the views of the tour, however I shan't bore you all, nor am I really in the mood to try and remember it all to type for you. Remember... tired, sore, and sunburnt?
Once finishing that, we headed to the Jet Boats. And it means pretty muh what it seems to. They are boats that go really fast. Up to 40mph, to be precise. Which I onl am because I actually knew that. 0,o Basically they take you out and go really fast then to all stops and 360 degree spins. Sounds like fun, except for the part about how you get wet and all. Which I suppose could be fun as well, unless you are wearing clothes and really don't want to have the nasty damp feeling as you are trying to walk back to your car and have to sit in those wet shorts......soory, I seem to be rambling. Anyway, we got wet. Luckily my dad was the one who seemed to get drenched more than either my sister or me. I was glad I didn't get to wet. However, our hair ened up as a serious, tangled, wavy and wet mess. You'd think that going so fast your hair would go behind your head...but no, it was all blowing up in our faces...my like, 15" long hair in my face, getting wet...ugh. that really annoyed me. Not that it wasn't fun or anything, because it was and our guide was nice and funny and he pointed out some topological things as well as trying to soak through our fibers.
Once that event was over and we got back to our room we all decided to shower again...cause our hair was messed up and we felt yucky. That took up some time, enough of which so that once we were ready to go, it was dinner time.
Although it wouldn't have been a first choice, we decided upon Culver's. The chicken tenders were ok but I really wasn't too fond of them and the fries, which I usually like, were fairly salty...ruining the taste a bit for me. Sigh...poor me. But we quickly went through that and headed for our mini-golf and arcade pack of wildness...stuff. Yeah. So anyway, we first played 9 holes of this aquarium 3-D and blacklight mini golf, but we played without the silly glasses because we can. then we headed to the pirates 3-D and blacklight pirate mini-golf. That was fun, we always do mini-golf with our dad...it's like a fun thing just for use to do. Mostly we play about and be silly and we always keep score...because, why not? It's just for fun^-^
After those games went by quickly we had some ice cream at this place inside the building were the golf adn arcade was. Although the cups weren't that large in appearance they PILLED the ice cream on, none of us were able to finish it all. :P But after tossing the leftovers, we headed for the arcade which was at first...kinda confusing. See, they no longer have tickets. They have electronic tickets or Etickets. Which you use a card to recieve them by slidding it after winning some. Sounds easy huh? Wrong. At first it seems like we got it, then we found that you put money on the cards and slide them in a token machine to get token from the money on the cards. You use the tokens in only SOME of the games and still collect the tickets by swipping the card after winning. However, on the games that don't allow tickets, you have to slide your card giving money from the card to play.
So you play and then it tells yu how many tickets you get and then you would assume you slide the card and get the tickets, BUT once you slide the card it then takes more money from the card and has you play AGAIN. It does this EVERY FREAKIN TIME!! It was seriously confising us as to whether or not we were even getting those tickets. Then after winning an over 300 tickets jackpot we were gettin gupset because we seriously didn't want to have those vanish. So when I was FORCED into asking some...yes forced because no one else would do it!... We eventually found that it was taking the ticketsbut also continuing to have you play over and over, practically until you have no money left. We found that to be very stupid, but whatever really. All in all, I won about 3 bonuses in a game and my sister, Inu--Yasha, got one. (the 314 ticket one--mine were only 117, 55, and 16) I won a pretty much everytime in that game except maybe 3 or 4 times.
After pooling all the tickets together we had over 2000 and of course as is custom when in arcades, you must get useless crap that seems more enjoyable at the time then it will be later. We got many things, some for ourselves and a few for a friend and our parents. (mostly our mom) Hehehehehe....so yes, we now have several pieces of cheap junk that is well....yeah...cheap junk.
And now we are back here, lounging about and resting some, cause UGH tired body. I had been thinking about drawing some tonight but I believe i'm to blah to really do anything contructive other than breathing to stay alive...to a degree. :P
And so there you have it! A day of bizzarely annoying and yet also entertaining stuff and things...and now I must go, for I is something or other...to lazy really to even try adn complete a thought right now.
TOODLES! ^-^ (yes, I did say that...get over your shock)
